HEART knows where HOME is

Part 22

PART 21

It had been two years now...

Two years of me in Italy..two years in therapy..two years away from him.

I would be lying if I said these years failed to heal me.i have changed a lot.I have gained a new confidence and in the same time I have become more social.6 months after I had started the therapy the therapist allowed me to continue my work as for the time it didnt affect my improvement in my menthal health.A part of the therapy was for my terrible introvertness(idk if thats a word😂) and it honestly served really good bcs now I didnt have a problem with being socially active..actually it was quite the oposite of that..lately I have started enjoying my life more..like I have started loving Christmas holidays as a time with my family..preparing the Christmas tree..giving and receiving gifts..going in trips and exercising different sports and most importantly learning how to appreciate the presence of every person on your life and not getting irritated by it and trying to push away.At first it was hard..I wanted to stay alone all the time..I hated all that light in my parents house..I wanted to work but I couldnt..but now..I still keep up very good with my work but have learned to keep the balance.Im still a nerd but at least now I dont try pushing everyone away from me...some people still but they deserve it so who cares😂.

The other part of my therapy was about my past trauma of getting raped(well almost).I had passed good with this one since I was a strong character and didnt get easily triggered by these these things but still my parents insisted on me finishing even this part.

So here I am now two years after..ready to finish my therapy..ready to prove Im completely healed.

Walking into the building I have gone almost every day for two years now,I couldnt help but feel anxious.I have waited for this day for two years now.I was going to give the exam which will give me the certificate that proves Im completely menthaly stable.

Entering the building where the exam would be held I was met with my therapist.He was a young men around my age maybe a few years older.During these years we have created a very close relationship but nothing more than friendship since he had already a fiance whom he loved a lot plus he wasnt my type.

"Hi Laura!":-Tom greeted his voice full of energy.

"Hi Tom.":-I replied my voice full of laziness.Hey just bcs i said I have changed so much doesnt mean im a morning person now.My sleepy arse havent changed and I highly doubt it will ever.

Tom chuckled at my laziness and while patting my shoulder he asked;

"So how are you feeling?"

I scratched the back of my neck while releasing a nervious sigh.

Noticing my nerviousness Tom turned my body fully facing him and kneeled down at my level(since he was taller):

"Hey hey I believe in you okay?I know you can do this!Just try to focus on your feelings and just forget about everything else.I know you are much stronger than those toxic feelings so you will win over them":-he comforted me,his tone full of coenfidence and trust.

Smiling in appreciation at his support I reached to hug him but was stopped midway by an womans voice:

"Laura Falcone is required on the office 32!"

"Its your turn.Go and good luck!":-Tom said while lightly pushing me to follow the old woman who was now waiting at the lobby for me.

(Now guys just a small announcement..idk how therapy works since I have ever been in one myself..not that I dont need it but anywaysss😂so pls dont judge me its completely something based on my imaginary and it may all be wrong in real life so pls dont throw eggs at me😂idk if there is even an exam at the end of a therapy so yeah..no judgement)

As soon as I reached the lobby the old woman turned her attention towards me and with a raised eyebrow she asked;

"Laura Falcone?"

"Yes":-I simply responded.

"Ok follow me this way.":-she said and started leading me towards a long endless hall.

Releasing a breath I didnt know i was holding I started following her from behind while saying to myself:

"You can do this Laura...you can do this."