HEART knows where HOME is

Part 5

PART 4

It had been a devastating week full of work and I couldnt have been more tired.I ate dinner,wore my red pijamas with white snowflakes(it was Christmas and here in Switzerland the weather was very cold) and sat on my sofa full of cushions,blankets and pillows while choosing a christmas movie(in the end I went for Home Alone) and made myself comfortable.The movie had just started when I heard the front doors bell ring.Sighing heavily and wondering myself who the heck can be at this hour of the night I got up from the warmth of my blankets and opened the door.As soon as I did I come face to face with a very tired Ash.I didnt even have to say anything because he just hugged me so hard and I took the hint that he wasnt in a talking mood.We stood there for like 15 minutes which resulted in me running my hands through his hair,patting his back in a gentle manner and whispering nothings to him.Soon my shoulder became wet and I knew he was crying.I tried soothing him down and as soon as his breathing went to normal I pulled him inside,closed the door and sat him on the sofa while all this time he didnt let go of me.I honestly wasn't bothered by his clinginess...now it has been years since we dont care anymore about physical contact...there has been many times when we have accidentally falled asleep next to each-other watching a movie or any winter night staring at the snow near the fireplace with a glass of wine talking about how life is going.

"Ash,":-i whispered in a soothing manner":-"how about you go up at your room(yes he had one at my house with his own wardrobe too bcs he spents a lot of time here),take a calming shower,wear your pijamas and come down while I prepare dinner for you?Does that sound good to you?"

He just hummed but didnt budge from his place.I sighed well-knowing he was not gonna let go anytime soon if I didnt try more.

"Ash go now love promise we will spend time together tomorrow as much as you want but right now you need a rest.Right?Go now cmon!"-i said in a soothing manner and literally dragged him from the sofa.After he went upstairs I started preparing dinner for him.Even tho I am tired everytime it comes to Ash I have this soft spot for him I just feel that urge to go protect,support,and take care of him.

Soon I was done with his dinner and was washing my hands when I felt a pair of hands wrap around my waist and a head rest on my shoulder...and by the water droplets falling from to my neck and the intoxic cologne which I could recognise everywhere I knew it was him.I turned my body to face him and for the first time tonight I saw his face from a clear point of view.His eyes were red puffy,his lips formed in a small pout,his nose scrunching up and his hair messed while his pijamas hang loosely in his body just like his hands hang lazily in my waist.For a moment I awed watching the big bad Knight everybody fears acting like a clingy toddler.I mean Ash really was clingy to me...but never this much..but I guess something bad happened to him because he was looking very vulnerable which is rare for Ash.He is always serious,calm and collected and you could never read his emotions...but in this moment...in this moment he had just let it all out...he was showing his weak side and he was trusting me...he always tells me i feel like home for him...the ONLY place where he would wish to go when he wants to find himself,to escape the world,the guns,the people,to stay in peace and just...be Ash... no mafia boss...nothing...just a normal man who wants love like everybody else does...

Ps:Also people forgot to mention..this book was finished before I started to post it in wattpad..bcs I didnt want to post a book just to leave it in the middle and disappoint ppl waiting...Im a reader myself so I know the pain...so I thought with myself if I finish it I will post it all at one time just to net u wait,,If i dont then beter not waste ur time:)