HEART knows where HOME is

Part 15

PART 14

"Why would you say that?":-I asked now my voice barely a whisper...more like a choking sound...from all the tears I was keeping inside.

"Because if they meant something to you...then you would be in somebody else arms now...because if you just stopped and saw how much I actually cared and loved you...you would know that me and you ...is all what we need.You really thought you had learned how to read my emotions?well you still havent...you may have read the smallest ones...but you never suceeded on catching the biggest one i ever had for you....the feeling of LOVE...."

"Y-you dont love me!"-:I said totally suprised:"You canr ..Im not someone to be loved"

"See?I cant believe!you still dont know it?how couldnt you notice everytime I protected you...supported you...stayed with you...it was written over my face..all the time...the feeling of adoration and happiness everytime I was around you...the overproctiveness and jealousy when you were around other guys..how couldnt you notice?oh wait...of course...you were too busy loving me as a "brother" to notice that huh? And here my stupid poor heart was all the time thinking we had a chance."

"I-"

"No dont worry Laura...I would never force you into something you dont want...I honestly dont believe I could even if I wanted...but I just wanted to tell you something else before I go...just like you wanted.Remember that night at the lake under the moonlight when you told me the biggest love was when you love somebody so much you are too selfish to have them anywhere else but by your side....even tho I didnt agree I said nothing..but today Im telling you I have experienced a much bigger love...one where you love that person so much you are ready to do everything to make that person happy even if it means...to let them go..."

And then ...he left..,

He left me there staring at his figure who was becoming smaller and smaller in my blurry vision from all the tears that were now falling down my face like a waterfall.how could I not notice?That lovely Ash who always cared abt me...and always threated every guy who came by my way...and here my stupid self thought he loved me like a sister...the same stupid self who was now raising her arms in hope to embrace his soul and not let him go...but who was only met with the emptiness of the tensed air...and the room was becoming smaller and smaller like her walls wanted to choke me...the air inside my lungs was feeling as a poison who had wrapped like a black cloud...my empty broken heart...who could do nothing in that moment...but leave...leave the house...leave Ash...who now was such a distant figure in my vision...and all of this for my fault.