To Feel What I Feel

Parents and Brothers

I live with my parents and brothers now in TN. I got kicked out of my sister's place for making the wrong decisions. I had to live in a  homeless shelter for 2 months. I've been away from my parents and brothers for 3 years so obvi they're happy to have me back. But ive grown but im also still super sensitive. Everything triggers me. Everything i told my dad that he said to me that he shouldn't've said to me he says he believes it but also can't believe he said it. And my mom is still sexist and shovanist. Thinking only the men should work and the women should clean. It's hard to meet their expectations of me. And im gay but im back in the closet for now because my parents and brothers are strict christians and view the rules in the old testament as rules for the new. Even tho my sister says i wont go to hell for being gay because just like in the old testament where it says dont eat pork everything was changed when Jesus died on the cross thats why Jesus sat with the sinners against the Pharisees' better judgment because as long as you love God and accept him in your life as the one and only savior then you're saved. But theres no talking to my parents.