After losing all her family members in a mysterious accident, Eleanor takes a spontaneous trip to Los Angeles to help herself move on from past events.
Only to find herself staying in a hotel with a worldwide Famous, British rockstar.
And as the twi...
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I felt weak, it's not a good feeling, the girls eventually forced me to sit down and have a drink, as soon as the boys finished their set they went off to the wings the other side to have a drink before they went back out onto the stage after the audience was cleared.
"Why are they on stage again?" Breana asked, though my gaze was kept toward the scruffy marks on the tips of my shoes, I so badly wished I had hit Seb straight across the jaw, I just felt stuck whenever he spoke. As if he had some sort of way to trap me and tangle me up within his twisted disgusting words.
"Talk with the manager then it's back to the tour bus for the night journey to Sheffs." Katie hummed, placing her chin in the palm of her hand as her elbow rested up against her knee.
I shuffled off the edge of the sofa and brushed my skirt down, feeling everyone's eyes burning on me as I moved round the coffee table and headed for the door, "El?" Breana called, "I'm just going to the loo." I looked over my shoulder quickly and sent them a reassuring smile.
If my life was a song, I think it would either be 'Feels like we only go backwards' by Tame Impala, or 'Chamber of Reflection' by Mac DeMarco. Why? Because my life hardly ever went forward, every bad person from my past seemed to whirl their way back into my life once again, leaving me feeling shit and gutted just how I have done this entire year.
Chamber of reflection relates to me, as half the time I am 'Alone again' as he sings repeatedly in the song, it's not that I choose to be alone, it's just sometimes I'm in a room filled with people, tens, hundreds, thousands, yet I'm lost. Lost in my own jungle of a mind and that's what makes me feel alone.
But whenever I'm with Alex it's different, he makes me feel as if everything's all about me, in a good way, he makes me feel like I'm the literal only girl in the world. And he makes me feel worth it, I've never ever felt that with anyone before. My whole storyline in my life was pointless until he came into it, he made it worth living.
The water stung the red marks rippled over my wrist as I ran my hands under the tap, mind fogging with thoughts about wherever Sebastian was and when he was going to see us again. I just wanted him gone for good, was that so much to ask?
No sleep, my eyes weighed heavy with dark bags aligning the skin under the rims, I couldn't sleep last night, obviously due to the fact I'd been up all night sobbing but, beside the point. Fluttering my eyes shut for a moment I dabbed them with cold water to freshen myself up a little, I didn't want Alex to think he was dating a walking corpse.
