Bee to my Barnes

part 65

Pacing the bedroom..

Waiting...waiting...waiting...

This was the longest 3 minutes of your life. Your palms were sweating, your not sure if the nausea is nerves or not. Placing your hand over your chest as your heart pounds, your mind is running 100 miles an hour.

What if you are? What would James say? Would you be sad if you weren't? James would make an amazing father, but what if he never wants kids? You haven't really spoke of the future past marriage and it's not like you both have any family. Jade and Steve were your family.

Looking at Jade, a brief happiness you were not alone and she was here with you warmed your soul before the hollow pit of dread returned. chewing the edges of your nails anxiously as you both waited, Jade sat on the edge of the bed, her foot tapping against the floor, speeding up as the seconds passed, mimicking your hearts.

Jumping to attention at the sound of the buzzer you both race over to the dresser. Your hands shaking as you pick up the small white stick on the counter, your eyes closed to scared to look you hold it close to your chest.

'I can't look.' you hold the pregnancy test out to Jade. Your eyes pleaded for her to look for you.

'Positive.'

‘Oh shit.’

Curling your hair between your fingers, biting down on your lip, you begin to pace again. In utter shock you keep repeating ‘Jade. It can’t be right. It must be wrong. What am I going to do? What will James say?’ Tears begin to well making your vision blur. Still in disbelieve you keep taking the test from Jade to see the results for yourself before handing it back. The answer never  changed.

Speechless Jade sits on the edge of the bed. ‘Your having a baby.’

Stopping dead mid stride. Reality taking hold, ‘I’m having a baby. I'M HAVING A BABY!’

Embracing Jade in a hug as the tears began to flow again a wave of excitement, visions of your future whizzing across you mind. Suddenly the nerves return hitting you like a truck, running back into he bathroom the nausea takes control.

After a while you sit back against the cool tiles of the bathroom walls. A small smile spreading over you face as your hand glides over your flat stomach. ‘ Hi Baby.’

                      _______________

The last 2 days could not have gone slower. Throwing your bag into the boot, shooting a quick text to Beatrix to let her know you were on your way, you jump into the dark leather seats of your car. The engine came to life with a deep roar, the grumbles vibrate under your grip of the steering wheel.

It was almost late afternoon, it would take you over 4 hours to get back home, to your doll. It was Jade’s party tonight and you promised you would be back on time and you tried to get away sooner, damn business meeting take forever. Following your text up with another you let her know you may be short on time and would meet her at the party.

Honestly the image of Beatrix in her Morticia costume had been your main focal point. Since the moment she had sent the photo all you have thought about is what you want to do the second she's in your arms and you would do anything to get close to her sooner.

Pressing down on the accelerator you can feel the speed of the car forcing your back into the cool hardness of your chair as the car sinks into the ground, maybe you could cut it down to 3.