Hope's pov
I'm in my room just thinking about everything that happened today. We had to say goodbye to Raf and Landon broke up with me
This is like the third time that he left me, but this time we actually broke up. I thought I was going to be sad or angry, but I'm not
All I feel is relief because I feel like I was the only one who cared about our relationship and he just ran away every time things got difficult
I asked him to stay so many times, but he always left without looking back and I always thought I did something wrong and that was the reason he left
I always put him first and rescued him when he was in danger and ignored everyone else because I didn't wanna see him get hurt and I didn't wanna lose another person I cared about
Today I finally realized that he doesn't understand me and looking back at our relationship, I think he never did
He didn't understand how could I be okay with Roman after what happened with my mom, not even after I explained him the full story. He always asked me about my parents even though I told him it was hard to talk about them
Today all I asked him was if he wanted to be with Raf because I know they are like brothers and I didn't want them to be away from each other
He of course took it the wrong way and thought I wanted to get rid of him and that was the last straw for me because he obviously doesn't understand that I only wanted the best for him
My thoughts get interrupted by a knock on the door "Who is it" I ask sitting on my bed "It's Josie, can I come in" I smile "Come in Jo"
She opens the door and I see she has ice cream in her hands. She walks in and closes the door and I get of my bed and hug her and she hugs back, we pull away
We sit down on my bed "I heard what happened with Landon and that's why I came here with ice cream and we are going to watch a movie to get your mind off of him"
I smile and hug her "Thanks Jo" she smiles and hugs back "No problem, that's what friends are for" my smile fades a little when she says that, but I quickly recover
We pull away "Now, do you want to watch a movie or talk first, but you don't have to if you're not ready or just don't want to talk about it" she says and I smile because she is so cute
No Hope, Landon just broke up with you and Josie is just your friend, so snap out of it "Um, Hope" Josie waves her hand in front of my face and I snap out of it and smile at her "Sorry, I was stuck in my thoughts for a minute" she just nods her head understanding
"So, do you wanna tell me what happened with Landon" Josie asks and I take a deep breath and nod my head yes. She just smiles and waits for me to talk
I smile a little "He got angry at me because I asked him if he wanted to go be with Raf and he immediately came to conclusion that I was trying to get rid of him or something
He didn't give me a chance to explain and just said that I was always trying to push him away and said that we are done. I was just asking him if he wanted to go be with Raf because I know they are like brothers and I didn't wanna separate them"
Josie looks at me after I finish speaking "Hope don't take this the wrong way, but I don't think Landon understands you or what you been through"
I nod my head "I was thinking the same thing before you walked in and I realized that he never really understood me and I was always rescuing him and ignored everyone else
I now realize how toxic our whole relationship was and I feel relief Josie that it's over and I don't know why I didn't realize sooner that we just don't belong together"
