Hope's pov
I wake up in the morning with a sigh because I broke up with Landon yesterday after we defeated the Krampus. When everyone got their memories back I knew Josie and Landon would be the most hurt by me not telling anyone who I was, but I was just trying to protect them
I didn't want Josie to be heartbroken if she found out that the boy that she's with technically has a girlfriend and I wanted both of them to be happy, but that plan didn't go over well because Josie hates me now and Landon left again
After he came back yesterday he first went to talk with Josie and after he finally showed up and started telling me that he loves me and to give him one more chance, I just couldn't do it
I told him that I don't have feelings for him anymore and that I hope that we can still be friends, I told him that with everything that happened, that I just don't wanna be in a relationship with him anymore and that I need to take some time for myself
That wasn't a lie, but another reason why I didn't wanna be with him again is because I realized that I deserve better and I think I didn't realize that sooner because I saw Landon as a safe option
Someone who couldn't die on me or leave me, but that also blow up in my face because he died and we discovered he's a phoenix and he left me at least 3 times and when I saw him and Josie kissing
I think that was the moment I realized that Landon and I don't belong together, I mean I can't blame them for being together, but I think that if I didn't see that, I would probably be with Landon right now, so I'm kind of glad I saw it now, even if then I wasn't
I didn't have a chance to talk to Josie and apologize for a lot of things and I hope I will get a chance today because I really need to talk to her and I really miss her. Lizzie and I are still friends despite Josie and me not talking and I'm glad I finally have a real friendship with Lizzie
With Josie is a little bit more complicated, I mean of course I wanna be friends with her again, but there's still a part of me that wants to be more. I realized my feelings for Josie came back after that day in the park
But we weren't close then and me and Lizzie always poked each other and I also thought I liked Landon and as I said before I chose him because he was a safer option and now I realized I made a mistake
Josie is someone who I can see my future with and after that day in the park I realized she's also someone who understands me and she somehow always manages to make me feel better no matter the situation
She always made me feel like that even when we weren't close and that scares me, so that is why I never told her after that day how I feel and that's why I chose Landon, but after everything that happened I'm done being scared
I know I have feelings for Josie and I hope someday I will be able to tell her, even though she probably won't feel the same way, although she had feelings for me in the past, but she probably doesn't feel like that anymore
I just know that I want her in my life and even if she will just be a friend I will be happy, but I first need to talk to her and with that in mind, I get out of the bed and take a quick shower and get dressed
I walk out of my room and start walking to breakfast, I walk into the cafeteria and take my food. I start looking for an empty table and just as I see one Lizzie yells ''Hope over here'' I look at her and sigh, but start walking over to her
I sit down next to her and glance at Josie and then look at Lizzie and give her a look, but she just smiles ''Good morning'' I give her a small smile ''Good morning'' I look at Josie, but she continues looking at her food and I sigh
