Coffee Mess

He Broke His Own Heart

"God, I needed that..." I say when I find my breath again and start getting dressed

"Obviously" he says, getting dressed too

"I needed a few moments of bliss before going to sleep and then waking up to face reality again"

"Wow, what happened with Logan hit you hard, huh?"

"Yeah, harder than I thought it would..."

"Almost like you have feelings for him..." he says looking me with a raised eyebrow

"Well, I'm not a robot, am I?"

"I didn't say that, I'm just saying that it shouldn't have hit you so hard that you just lost a fuck buddy"

"He was more than that and we all know it"

"He was?"

"Yes. We came close. We were also friends..."

"Friends don't have sex with each other, Sandra"

"Well, we did. He might be in love with me, but, to me, it was like a good friend I occasionally fucked"

"Are you sure you didn't fall for him too?"

"I'm not sure about anything, Ian, I'm 18 years old. The only thing I'm sure about is that I broke the perfect guy's heart"

"Didn't he know what your relationship was?"

"He did, I was perfectly clear: I don't date, I just have sex instead. He came to me and asked me to use him for sex"

"Well, then it's not your fault. If you were straight with him from the start and he knew what he was getting into, then it's not your problem that he got heartbroken. He could have backed out at any moment, right?"

"Right..." I say, thinking about it. He might be onto something

"So, get over it. You were clear about the nature of your relationship, so if he stayed after falling for you, it's his fault, not yours"

"I guess. But I always knew that he agreed on that in hopes he will make me fall for him eventually"

"Again, he's a big boy. If he said he was ok with that, when in reality he wasn't, then he broke his own heart"

"If you put it like that, you're right. I'm just trying to think if I led him on somehow..." I sigh "Anyway. Thanks for the sex, it was great" I say, walking to the door

"Anytime. I didn't hurt you much, right? I tend to be pretty aggressive if given the chance..."

"Don't worry about it. Your handprint may be on my ass for a while, but it was actually pretty awesome. Everyone is always afraid I will break or something because I'm young.  You're the first to actually treat me like I'm not made of glass"

"My motto is: pain is pleasure and pleasure can be handled. Of course that applies only if the other person isn't being harmed and abused"

"I like that motto. I'm leaving now, my dad will be worried..."

"Of course. You also need to sleep, you're working tomorrow" he says playfully, smirking

"Right, I wouldn't want my boss to be mad at me for being late. Even if he was the one keeping me up" I say at the same tone and then he unlocks the door and we get out

"Ok, how long have you been fucking?" Fred asks frustrated when we go close to him

"Not long, relax. This was the 3rd time" I tell him, finishing my drink

"Since when do you screw your employees?" he asks Ian irritated

"You know I don't. But this little creature is a vixen!"

"I'd call your dick little, but we both know this isn't true" I say, playing offended by his comment, and at the end he laughs, while Fred sighs and squeezes his eyes shut in distress

"Just go" he says, looking disgusted, giving me my things, that I had him store in a cabinet under the counter, and I take them laughing

"Good night guys, see u in a few hours" I say and Fred just waves at me without looking. As I put my coat on, I look at Ian amused by Fred's reaction and he winks at me

"Take a cab" he says, playing strict

"Yes, daddy" I reply teasingly, making him bite his bottom lip

"You have 5 seconds to disappear from my sight before I push you back into my office" he says, looking at me seductively

"Tempting, but If I don't leave now, neither of us will show up in the morning" I say winking and then turn around, leaving Fred making puking sounds

~~~

When I get in the house, I go to the kitchen to drink some water before going to sleep, only to find my dad sitting on a chair around the kitchen table.

"Hi" I say, walking to the fridge

"Hi. Do you feel any better?"

"I think so. Ian helped me understand that maybe it's not my fault that Logan's heart got broken. He knew what he was getting into, so, in a way, he broke his own heart" I answer, pouring some water in a glass and then I put the bottle back in the fridge and close it

"Ian is smart"

"He is, yeah. He helped me a lot"

"You had sex with him, didn't you?"

"Oh, yeah! And it was amazing. Good to have him as a back-up"

"Do you think it's safe to have that relationship with your boss?"

"Well, its clear that it's only casual sex. I don't ask for any special treatment and he doesn't treat me any differently than he treats Mike"

"And you're not scared that it might end up badly?"

"Nope. I think that if we start feeling that it isn't working anymore, we'll just stop. Besides, it's not like I will be working there forever"

"Right...alright then, since you're back, I'm going to turn in, ok?"

"Yeah, ok. Goodnight" I say and after kissing me on the head, he goes to his room

Not long after going to my room too and changing into my pjs, I try to sleep, but I keep thinking of everything that has happened the last month and I can't sleep, so I decide to go sleep with my dad.

"Dad?" I whisper, shaking him gently

"What's up? Everything ok?" he asks startled

"Yes, everything is ok, but I can't sleep. Do you mind if I sleep with you instead?" I ask softly and he scoots over, keeping the covers up for me to get in, and when I crawl under them and into his arms, he covers me and wraps his arms around me tightly. This works like a charm, since I fall asleep within minutes.