Coffee Mess

Confrontation

"That was easy, u don't know anyone else!"

"I should realize that something happened with him again, Erin asked me to transfer her in another spot..."

"She did? Wow, I didn't know their breakup hit her like that!"

"U knew about it?"

"I was getting a weird vibe, but Logan confirmed it yesterday..."

"Do u know why they broke up?"

"I do, but I'm not gonna tell u"

"I think I can understand, though...if he made u feel nice, I bet he told u how wrong I am and how he would treat u so much better, right?"

"Something like that, but, Ian, Logan talking to me isn't the problem, ok? I gave up my freedom to try with u and, honestly, it doesn't feel worth it"

"U regret doing that?"

"I don't regret it, but I thought that I was making the right choice. U're smart, handsome, u have your shit together, when it comes to work at least, and we already had a connection, so I said why not?"

"Is that enough for u, though?"

"I don't know...all I know is that I feel nice when we're together"

"I feel nice too, but if this isn't what u want, if u feel like u're pushing yourself to do something u don't want or like, I don't want to hold u back..."

"Truth is, I don't feel as limited as I thought I would. I don't feel like I can't do things because I'm in a relationship"

"I'm glad to hear that!"

"How do u feel?"

"Honestly? I feel kinda weird..."

"Good weird or bad weird?"

"I don't know..."

"Are we really that detached from our feelings that we don't even know what we feel?"

"Maybe...but u're too young for that, Sandra. U have to fall in love and have your heart broken and all that stuff! U can't just avoid it and go straight to the good stuff!"

"I'm scared to let my guard down...there's so much pain in the world and I don't want to feel that! I want to be happy and hopeful!"

"Are u, though?"

"Not really..."

"Trust me, keeping your guard up isn't gonna get u far. There's so much u're missing!"

"U're the one to talk..." I say scoffing

"Sweetie, I wasn't always like that. I had to become, in order to keep my mind clear until I'm done building my empire"

"And when do u think u'll be done with that?"

"I am done!"

"U are?"

"Yep!"

"And now what? U will just drop your guards?"

"Well, I'm gonna need some help, but that's the plan, yeah!"

"U mean my help?"

"If u're ready to drop your guards too, then yeah, yours. I didn't ask u to be my girlfriend just to do it...I knew it was time to be myself again and u seem to be worth the wait..." he says and I smile

"What if it doesn't work?"

"Then we'll take our separate ways and wish each other the best"

"U're willing to take that risk? U're not afraid u're gonna get hurt?"

"Getting hurt is part the game, Sandra. U can't avoid it, so u might as well live a little before it comes!"

"U're so old and wise!" I say teasing him and he frowns playfully

"Old? I'll show u who's old!" he says and rolls me to my back, getting on top of me, while I giggle

~~~ 

Ian's P.O.V.

The next day, around morning, I go to the police station to find Logan

"Good morning officers, is Logan here?" I ask when I walk in

"I'm here" I hear him saying from behind me and I turn around

"Great, can we talk for a moment?"

"I have nothing to talk about with u" he says in a deep voice, probably to sound intimidating, with his back straight and his hands on his belt

"That's funny *chuckles* because, apparently, u had plenty to talk about with my girlfriend" I say ironically 

"That's what this is about, I see!"

"Yeah, that! Can we go outside now?"

"Fine, let's go" he says and we get out

"So, I'll be quick. I don't know what u said to Sandra, but from the conversation we had I understood u told her about all the ways u're better for her and how I'm the bad guy who doesn't treat her right... "

"I didn't tell her anything that wasn't true"

"What's true and what isn't, let me worry about, ok? I don't appreciate u talking to my girlfriend and dissing me, while I'm away, ok? My relationship with Sandra is none of your goddamn business!"

"Look, dude, I really don't want to get in the middle, ok? I just saw how upset she was, went to talk to her, happened to hear the message she was leaving to u and just tried to make her feel better..."

"By telling her how u wouldn't be able not to hear her voice for even half a day, right?"

"That's one of the things I told her, yeah. And, again, it was true! I don't know how u could pass the day without talking to her..."

"Again, none of your business. U don't know me and how I choose to express my feelings, so keep your fucking distance, ok? I'm trying so hard to make it work and I can't have u ruining it!"

"Oh, please, is that how u try? By having her beg for your attention?"

"Are u deaf? I said I'm trying, ok? I know I'm not doing great, but that doesn't give u the right to diss me! U might be better at it because u have it in u and because u never chose to shut your feelings off for a while, but that doesn't give u the right to flex it! Congratulations on being a great boyfriend, but don't forget who she chose..." I say looking at him in the eyes and then I turn around to leave

"She didn't choose u!" I hear him saying from behind me and I go back again

"What?"

"She didn't choose u...u just happened to be around when she decided to get in a relationship"

"Looks like u have your facts wrong, dude..."

"Do I?"

"Yes, because we didn't start a relationship just like that...I asked her to be exclusive in terms of sex and we just did that for a while, until we went to a wedding together and we decided that we're so emotionally unavailable that we're just great for each other" I explain and he falls silent

"U see, apparently, she just realized how compatible we are...but, maybe u're right! I happened to be around, so, in a way, I should be thankful for u letting her go!" I say smiling, with the intent to hurt his feelings

"I don't want your gratitude, u can shove it up your ass! I just want her to be happy, so, please, if u really want to thank me, just keep her happy!" he replies and gets back in the building