ninth chapter

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The chapter is the day after Beomgyus' dream, so if you didn't remember reread the dream, because he'll talk/ think about it :) Enjoyyy <33

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I hate this dream. I dream the same thing over and over again, since that day.

While I'm dreaming, I can't remember that, but when I wake up I know it every time.

I notice that I probably cried last night, because my cheeks are wet. I can feel that my clothes are wet too and they stick on my body, so I must have sweat a lot.

I hate it. I really hate it. I could cry again if I think of it.

The only thing that I hate more than this nightmare is to wake up after.

Before I'll cry all day wrapped up in my blanket und snuggling with my pillows, I sit up and reach for my smartphone.

I see a text message from Soobin, telling me that they are free and want to hang out with me. Okay now, and what do we do?

Maybe we can go to the little city near here and go shopping or hangout in the cafés or something like this?

I ask Soobin what they want to do and when and eventually suggest that we could do what I was thinking about earlier. He is fast to reply with a yes and tell me that they could pick me up in two hours.

After everything is clear I face my clothes.

Why is it so hard to decide what to wear? I never had such a problem with, but I'll face Tae- wait it has nothing to do with it, right? Or maybe...

I shake my head to get rid of these thoughts.

After some thoughts I decide to wear an oversized black hoodie and casual pants, since it's not that warm outside.

I shower, brush my teeth and after dressing up, I look in the mirror approving that I don't look as terrible as I thought

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I shower, brush my teeth and after dressing up, I look in the mirror approving that I don't look as terrible as I thought. Because of my lack of sleep, I still have dark circles around my eyes, but my skin looks not as pale as it looks before.

Oh shi-

half an hour already passed. Fastly, I grab my phone again and make my way down to eat breakfast.

I politely greet everyone who is looking at me and sit down on to eat my food quietly and be fast to go back to my apartment. Everything is so silent.

My brother and I usually aren't together all the time, but we are really close. It feels empty without him. The room seems too big, the silence too quiet and the voices in my head too loud.

I feel the emptiness crawl up my body again, as suddenly my phone buzzes.

"Hello?"

"Uhm, hey. It's Taehyun"

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