difficult // taegyu

third chapter

Do you know the feeling, when you know something is wrong, but you don't know what? Like something is missing, but you never owned it or can't remember, what you lost?

There are these hours, days or even weeks, when I can't focus. When I feel out of place and can't concentrate. Nobody knows it, nobody notices it. And I don't blame them. My friends and parents give me attention, they sometimes observe me, and they are not bad at it. It's just that I am even better in pretending. (I am Kang Taeyhun, I'm good at everything, you know?) But I cannot figure out, what is missing. And it is frustrating.

I am athletic, but I am not fast enough to grab it. I am strong, but I can't fight it. I am smart, but I can't think of a solution.

I sigh and turn around laying on my bed to face the door. I have to get ready, but I don't want to. After a few more sighs I get up to take a look at my clothes. I promised the two older males to be ready in a few minutes, because my Hyungs want to go out and eat at our first day here.

What shall I wear? Not that something important is going to happen and I look good in everything though. I guess, I just go with the black look. I grab a black ripped jeans and a dark Shirt and add a jacket.

After a look in the mirror, I approve that the style fit's me.

Outside my room are standing Yeonjun and Soobin. Soobin wears light pants and an oversized white striped T-Shirt. He even wears a cute white hat, and his blue hair completes his look. Yeonjun wears a white, black and comforting pants. Even though I would never say that out loud I must admit that they both look handsome.