The Wonders In Our Head

.Drowning.

it's like I am drowning 

in my own mind

our images flash up 

every time I try to forget us,

as if I never deserve to be like others

As if I never deserve to be normal.

But I know better,

it's my fault

I know it,

I know i am drowning

but when everyone's at the shore, trying to save me

I am the one who declines their reach of hand

who purposely falls back deeper in the sea I never wanted to

I guess it's okay.

I know it's not okay

coz it's messing with my dreams

my ambitions and the future I am so desperately working for.

.31/10/2021.