The Wonders In Our Head

.Another Day.

.Another Day.

Another day, another show 

it's just the same little act of love.

another day as she lives

she can hear them break again.

Families break apart

and she can't help but blame herself.

Another day, another shot

maybe this time the fights will stop.

Another day, now it's an unusual one

as she sees them all laughing together,

a smile forms on her pale face

maybe everyone's finally healing now,

she joins them up 

and enjoys the show

the smiles ain't fake this time,

she smiles and laughs and holds their hands tightly in hers

remember the way it gives you warmth 

and the feeling of safety,

until...

Another talk, another show

the words get heated now

she tries to shove it away

but the words get to her again,

another time, maybe I'll stop

shouting and screaming,

the girl feels lost in her own skull,

why was she screaming, yelling?

why was she so triggered?

the words roll along her tongue 

and she wishes she could stop herself,

but another remark 

and she feels herself becoming someone else.

Another shout, another scream

she remembers her voice cracking and the hurt shining in their eyes

her voice is hoarse and she feels scared

yet another argument passes through her mouth

"don't fight, stay numb. the more you talk the more you hurt"

"but I have been silent for too long, I can't see myself being hurt because of them"

another scream and she's crying now

her father's astonished and her mother feels guilty for giving birth to her

her brother feels his trust in her lessen 

she suddenly feels conscious.

Another round of silence, there is regret around