REASONS • TAEGYU

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Time flew faster than Beomgyu had thought. He can't believe that he slept on the library for almost 5 hours and it was already afternoon.

Beomgyu spank his head playfully for being a 'dummy' once again, so without a second thought he grab all of his things and checked out from the library.

In rush but still he nicely took a cab and gladly the driver droves him right on the exact location he wanted to go. Passed the city lights they had arrived on the bottom road of Namsan Tower.

Beomgyu wanted to spend his day seeing the orange caramelized cloud set into the horizons, he wanted to witness how does the beautiful rays of light been replaced by the glow of the moon.

Sounds very poetic and astronomical. But maybe because he read lots of books, and believe in things that no one can fully understand. Beomgyu is always been like this, he comes to value everything, everyone. It's purpose and even its reasons.

Arriving at the average platform of the tower, just in time and like Beomgyu always wanted, he witness the beautiful sea of clouds setting  into the sky.

A warm breeze blow pass his face that make his scarf and hair dance, He close his eyes and just enjoy the moment he had.

From the eyes that has been watching the older boy ever since the beginning, he didn't help himself but to shed tears. He wanted to touch the boy, hug him or kiss him as a repayment, longing and forgiveness.

He may had this great opportunity to say things he wanted to let out from his mouth, or even pull beomgyu close into his chest but he can't, not for now.

"The sun sets beautifully, my love, and so you are" The male whisper from afar once again, watching the older male on the platform.

But Beomgyu felt that familiar presence again, he knew someone or something that is off, but not really. He just find it strange. 

Soon, Beomgyu take his journey into an end, he stopped by the nearest shop to take out some dinner since he's very tired from  travelling into places. A nice bowl of katsu while watching his favorite drama is fun though, so he better get home.

The young man's task was also about to end, he flash a soft smile on his lips as well as his dimples turn into an angle. He witness Beomgyu got home safe and sound, now his job is done, he must also head home.

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"Someone's smiling?" Soobin stared at his brother while fixing the washed platter on the cabin. Well, he's happy that he already seeing Taehyun smile but he was also curious of the how's and why's behind it.

Taehyun just let a soft chuckle, followed by a deep sigh, "Hyung, i think he's not that different from my dream"

"Who? What are you saying? Omg wait– Taehyun don't tell me, you!? " Soobin almost dropped the plate from his hands but gladly he didn't, he was just shock and a bit disappointed.

Taehyun didn't bulge the small hint of anger that Soobin was about to made but instead he reminisce the moments that happened earlier, sharing most of them to his brother.

"So.. You're saying that the traits of your imaginative lover, is the same with the real choi beomgyu living in this real world?" Soobin asked, still head was combusted with questions.

"Yes hyung, i am 80% sure, he loves books, morning pancakes, sunsets and scarfs! I always bought him scarfs, he's seem very polite and shy too. I'm positive on this hyung, they're almost the same" The Younger rap his words but gladly the older is quick to catch it.

"What are you planning then..No. You can't just bump into him and simple said that, 'hi im your lover aka husband on my creative comatose imaginary world, would you mind to continue our relationship in real life' " 

Taehyun laughed at his brother's made scenario but he actually thought that one impulsively but no, he won't definitely consider it. "I'm desperate but not stupid hyung. For now I'll just going to watch him, make sure that fate will not have that single chance to took him away from me ever again."

Soobin cooed his Brother's bravery even though deep inside he's still worried, " That's painful you know, you're kinda putting yourself in a trap. What if he didn't love you? or accept you atleast? maybe he has a boyfriend already, he's very pretty... you know 'bout thinking other possibilities tyun? "

Taehyun already thought about that, but he was furious, why? because once in his life, he was given another chance, and those chances are not meant to be just wasted. It's okay if Beomgyu can't accept him, it's definitely okay because Taehyun knows deep down in his heart his already happy to see his only love alive. That's what matters.

" Hyung, you see me one second away from death, and i saw him in absolute part of death. I bet you know how does it feels right? you know how painful it is. But still, you're willing to risk everything for it. Same with him, I'm willing to risk everything for him, again. So, i hope you don't mind, but i swear i will not do anything stupid, i love him hyung, and my actions will always be gentle towards him and for myself too. Please don't worry hmm?" Soobin had reflect on what had Taehyun just said, he's right. Maybe he needs to let Taehyun.