REASONS • TAEGYU

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Taehyun stood in front of Beomgyu's unit, holding a box of jellies, hesitating to knock for about 2 minutes.

He's nervous, what would the older look like when he see him. Will he be angry? Happy ? He don't know either, but he just hope that Beomgyu would understand his position.

Taehyun finally had the courage to knock, and when he did, no one actually answers. Around 3mins later, he tried again, but nothing.

Maybe he wasn't home? or just asleep?

"Beomgyu? It's me Taehyun! are you—"

Suddenly the door open, revealing a man on his pajamas. Eyes were drawn with black circles, and his facial expressions was bit strange. Tired.

"Beomgyu! Did you eat? Did you sleep? why do you look like that? Are you okay? hmm?!" Taehyun drop the jellies and rush to cupped Beomgyu's cheek, observing the older's face.

Beomgyu, with his watery eyes, stared at Taehyun's concerning face, He leans to the touch and give in. Tears falls into his cheeks and he whispered.

"Please go.."

Taehyun got taken aback. He doesn't listen to him and instead of leaving, he grab beomgyu into a close hug, letting the older cry on his shoulder.

Beomgyu was so happy to see Taehyun again, because it maybe the last time he's seeing him. Mi yoon is now starting her plans and Taehyun might be in danger if he still stood close, it's better to cut their ties now.

However, Beomgyu was hurt, really hurt, He kinda feel something strong inside that shouts for Taehyun's name, not wanting him to go or leave him. It hurts him, he's now starting to like the younger, he's now getting happy with him, but it seems that fate is taking it away. (again)

"What are you saying? look at you, you need me here, I won't leave you in this state" Taehyun said softly kissing the top of Beomgyu's hair.

Beomgyu just feel worst from this hug, from this actions of Taehyun. It makes it really hard for him to let go.

"Goodbye Taehyun, Just go..."

With that, Taehyun was pushed and the door quickly locks in. Taehyun bangs the door to call for the older to open, but no, Beomgyu already had decided.

"Beomgyu please, open this! Choi Beomgyu, please open the door."

Beomgyu cried against the locked door, he sat on the floor and covered his mouth to interfere his crying mewls.

He heard Taehyun's worried calls but he just can't. He's already used to the pain that Mi Yoon had cause in his life, but adding Taehyun to the frame was unbearable. He would not let Mi Yoon touch Taehyun, so It's best to break the connection as early as now.

"Gyu, Okay. I know you hear me, please if i did something wrong point it out, and if you're having a hard time please remember that I'm always here for you. Please, Don't do this" Taehyun softly said.

"I'm fine just go!" Beomgyu said

" I am not going anywhere until you open this door!" Taehyun responded

"Please Taehyun, give me a break."

Taehyun sighed deeply and start to calm himself.

"Okay, I will leave. But please whatever it is, let's talk and fix it.....I loose you once, and I am not letting you go again Choi Beomgyu." Taehyun whisper the last sentence with his heavy heart.

Before leaving Taehyun place the box of sweets on the door, he detached the note he put in it earlier and inserted on the bottom of Beomgyu's door to read.

Beomgyu heard footsteps slowly fading away from his door, and right when he saw the note that Taehyun inserted, he cried at the message.

"It's been 2 weeks, sorry for my absence i just need to handle personal problems well. I hope you enjoy the gummies! I miss you"

"I miss you, but I'm so sorry, Taehyun." Beomgyu buried his head on his knees, crying until his energy last.

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The Younger didn't missed a single day just to check Beomgyu on his unit.  Even if the older still doesn't want to face or talk to him, he make sure that he's there ready to listen, only if he could just open his doors.

Beomgyu on the other hand felt like dying, Mi yoon keeps bugging her too. She keeps sending malicious and disgraceful texts like it was the first thing she'll do every morning.

"Hah. Right, Bind yourself in that tiny house of yours until you fvcking die. If you let Taehyun in, I'll make sure to hunt him down."

Beomgyu was so sick of this scenario, it's always like this, when will he be able to be happy in peace. He's so tired of dealing with Mi Yoon over and over again.

So Beomgyu move himself off his bed. He walk and slowly stopped at the door, knowing that Taehyun must probably camping there for hours.

He felt tears on his cheeks and continued towards on the bathroom.
He found himself staring at the mirror, and he burst out a small laugh.

"Ugly, gay, unwanted, useless. die.die.die.Die."

The sanity of Beomgyu got somewhat occupied by Mi Yoon's harsh words. And it makes him looks like crazy as he was crying and laughing in front of the mirror.

He thought that if he could just turn back time, he'll never let Mi Yoon stood and step on his life, He could take precautions and cut her off in his life. However, it was too late, his kindness created a monster, and it was very depressing.

Maybe Mi Yoon was right, If he cannot get rid of her, he'll doing the deed for his peace.

And so Beomgyu stared at the Bathroom tub. With his bare feet, he lets the cold water engulfed his body, hoping that in a minute or two, he'll be able to escape his cold suffering.