REASONS • TAEGYU

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Beomgyu was still ethereal in his hospital gown. His beauty was like the fresh picked morning daisies from his table. It's been 2 years after the incident, and after the two has been seperated by fate once again. And just like Taehyun had promised, he will wait for him to wake.

Taehyun was in his regular routine, to watch Beomgyu or read something as he kills the time on the hospital. He spend days and nights beside his lover, praying that one day he'll open to meet his eyes. Taehyun now understand what his brother felt when he was in coma, it was very emotionally challenging to extent that it's unbearable to bare. Sometimes, he makes noises around the room, to help Beomgyu's senses, to assure that he is still waiting for his return. But most of the times, Taehyun was in complete silence, distraught by fear and sorrow for his lover's state.

To keep himself sane, Taehyun always look into Beomgyu's diary, which are full of sketches of their memories. The sketch of the cafe where they first met, His portrait sleeping on a sofa, him and Beomgyu's first kiss in dim sunset....looking at these pictures makes Taehyun feel at ease, it gives him hope that Beomgyu will be able to fill the diary with their memories.

Despite all of the hopeful prayers, Beomgyu isn't showing any signs of awakening at all, he was in deep sleep and no one knows for how long it would take. It's exactly 700 days since he was admitted, he missed lots of celebrations which includes today, as Hueningkai is expected to return in Korea.

The younger know what happens to Beomgyu, in fact, he immediately fly back to Korea after the incident but never got the chance to stay with his hyung because of his trainings. This time, Hueningkai is on his way to be with his beloved hyung once again, and this time he'll never leave.

Taehyun recognize the handsome man at the door as soon as he open it, Hueningkai greeted him with gentle smile. "Welcome back, hue.", "Thank you, how's hyung?" Taehyun wore a sad look and just then Hueningkai knows the answer, Taehyun leave the room for the both of them, he knows that the younger had so much to say to Beomgyu. 

As Hueningkai walk closer to the bed, tears formed into his eyes and unspoken words were said for the very first time.

"Hyung. It's been 2 years, my training in Tokyo was so hard, my coaches are very strict that sometimes I went back home with severe back pain haha. But... that doesn't compare from your state right now, I bet you are sore for lying there for 2 years, for all the needles they put on to you, for all the cries you heard from taehyun. Can you please wake up now?

I want you to catch me crying so you can tease me about it,
To wipe my tears... And hug me...
I want you to ruffle my head for doing a great job because I've achieved my dream.

Can you now please wake up hyung? So I can show you this medal, the medal that I promise you 2 years ago. I want you to wear it.
As the medal is solely dedicated for you. I miss you hyung, very much. Wake up now my hyungie~ we still need to practice at the rink. Wake up now my beloved friend. "

Hueningkai shed his tears beside of his friend and Taehyun can't help but to cry as well. Beomgyu heard every bit of his words, as much as he wanted to wake, he can't. Everything was so hard for all of them, and the greatest weapon they only have, is hope.

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Beomgyu was all alone in his dream, it was empty and cold.
He tried to run around to find a way out but it only leads him into an endless road of white, which he didn't prefer to go to.

He lost counts of days inside his dream, he didn't even know if he'll ever woke up. One thing that he holds on to are the voices he always hear from a far, he just felt assured that it is taehyun or his mom talking and looking after him. Beomgyu felt warm whenever he hear voices, but sometimes he felt cold specially when the voice are a bit sad.

Beomgyu wished he can go back now, he wished to be with his loveones once again, and this time he promise he'll be better. That he won't waste a second being happy with the people whom he truly loved.

Most importantly he promise himself that whatever happens to the both of them, he'll choose and love Taehyun. Even if death had him, his love for taehyun will always be grounded from every inch of his soul.

"I want to go back, we've got enough...I learned enough."

Beomgyu whisper softly, waiting for anything to happen but nothing. It's just the same quiet place and him. Hope fell down into his knees and he shut his eyes, "he's everything I am. I want to wake up, I want to go back..."

Tears fall into his eyes, even though they're closed. For the very first time in years, he felt water in his cheeks, air from his nose and a light occupying his eyes.

He don't know for sure if he's back, all he can say at that moment is

"Taehyun."