REASONS • TAEGYU

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Odd. I've been here before.

Taehyun walk into his familiar dream,
Everything was white and all he can see is the asphalt road that leads him into something.
The road seems so endless that he loss count of his footsteps.
Until he reaches the end of the road, a village full of happy faces.

Taehyun stood in front of a house, hearing laughters inside on it.
The laugh was very familiar, as if he heard it a thousand times before, and he wouldn't mind to hear it more.
Opening the fence, as close as he go, Taehyun walked into the door.
No one is inside, but pictures of memories.
Pictures of him and Beomgyu.

Beomgyu?
Beomgyu?
Beomgyu.

Just then Taehyun realizes what the brain isn't supposed to realize nor interpret,
The dream was indeed a dream of a lost soul once again.
Tears went down into his face and he can feel it like it was all real.
"I'm on coma again"

But this new dream he created was different, far from his first.
It seems like there's nothing to do, and nothing to go on with his story.
It feels no air to breathe, no other people atleast to talk to.
" Or am I dead?"

Taehyun can't help but to roam into the house,
In each corner he smiled remembering the things that they do.
A place where Beomgyu they used to bicker and play his games, including the place of their first kiss.
He remembered the memories of his first coma, as if it was done and true.
"Why do I keep coming back to these memories?"

Reaching the bedroom, he saw an image of a human.
He was very shocked and close to fell on his knees when he saw who it was.
"Beomgyu?"
Beomgyu turn around to have him a smile.

" taehyun ah"
Beomgyu said sweetly making the younger melt and long for him a little more.
Taehyun wanted to rush himself to the older, to hug him, but his feet are unable to step for an unknown reason.
"Beomgyu what's happening to us? all things are already good right? But why?... Do we not deserve to be happy?"

Taehyun asked in so much pain, he let out everything including the tears he didn't even knew if it was real.
The younger has indeed right on every word, why can't they be happy and peaceful?
What more fate wants him to do just to be with Beomgyu?

" you're not supposed to be here.."

"What do you mean? I know I'm on coma, and maybe you-" just then Taehyun realizes.

"We was supposed to get back to Seoul, don't tell me we died!?"

Beomgyu chuckle and walk towards the crying taehyun.
"No. Just asleep."

" How can we wake up? I wanna be with you Beomgyu. I just wanted to build a happy life with you, but why do we always end up like this?"

Beomgyu fell into tears, feeling the pain on each words.
"I don't know, maybe we just need to hold a little longer?"

"for what? It doesn't make sense at all, why do we need to suffer like this for us to be together? And how can we hold? I don't even know if I'm still alive? And if I will be able to see you when I wake up. It feels sick, I don't want this anymore, maybe if I didn't even try to find you this won't happen, maybe-"

"Shsss, please don't blame yourself, I'm not regretting everything happened to us. I may not be so sure the reason why we always end up like this but I know that you and I will always find a way to get back into each other's arms and fight each battles together. Our love was a tragedy, even fate disagree, yet the love we share was powerful than anything else in this world, that's why you always find me, you bring our love a hope and built genuinely. You sacrifice and bend all things just to make sure we're happy, and I'm safe."

Beomgyu move his hands closer to Taehyun's cheek, caressing it.
However, Taehyun cannot feel anything from it.

"Taehyun, you've done enough, but please don't give up on us.
I know someday we'll have the things we wanted in our ways.
Sometimes we don't need to ask for reasons, we just need trust and learn from it.
Can you hold a little longer my love? Please.
This time, I'll do my best to find you.
Once I do, everything will be alright, again."

Taehyun cried and he grabbed Beomgyu into a hug.
He shed tears like river just like before,
He don't want to ask for reasons anymore,
He's going to trust Beomgyu, that one day, they'll be better. After all life is not all rainbows and sunshines.
Their love has been full of storms but it'll passed, he knows it better now.

Taehyun closed their hugs even more and shut his eyes,
The body he's hugging felt like vanishing into the thin air.
Once completely gone,
He manage to open his eyes.

Welcoming by a ceiling of white,
And hearing the familiar beep of the machines.
"I'm back?"

When he turned his head into the side,
Tears fall unstoppably from his eyes once again.
Beomgyu.
Sleeping peacefully next to his bed.