Dysphoric (DNF-ftmGeorge)

Part 48

More Karlnapity Cus I need my daily dose of serotonin.

-(one week later)-

Quackity had been studying non stop, studying Law was stressful especially when you miss THREE MONTHS WORTH OF STUDYING.
He knew that when George convinced him to go, it was a holiday anyway so he only took a few extra days off compared to everyone else in his class, but most of them had studied a lot during that time, there is a lot of stuff to remember and spending so much time chilling out and not thinking about it had made his mind go blank.

He was struggling in his class, he had no time to stop and cool down. It felt like everyone else was ahead and the crushing overwhelming feeling of the pressure to succeed and meet expectations was slowly killing him.
It's been 6 days since he last saw his boyfriends, as soon as he got home he slept, he didn't properly estimate just how much studying he would have to do.

He felt he needed to make up for all the time everyone else was studying.
In the last week, he had only eaten 1-2 meals a day and only slept around 2-5 hours, he was so stressed that he didn't feel hungry and time seemed to pass so fast that he ended up forgetting about meals, and ended up staying up way later than he thought, having to wake up again a few hours later, one night he accidentally pulled an all nighter, staying up till one hour before school started and decided to have a shower, get changed and go.

Karl and Sapnap were growing more and more worried, they had promised to call as much as possible, but for Quackity that wasn't much, he had built an unhealthy routine of revision.
They had only called two times since they last saw eachother and it didn't last very long, they had tried calling him multiple times every day but Quackity left his phone on silent so not to disturb him while studying, messaging them just before he went to sleep early in the morning with an apology and an ily.
This was only adding to Quackity's stress, thinking his lovers may feel neglected.
The other two were also concern by the way they woke up to his apology's at stupid'o'clock in the morning.

Today they decided to call him again, and he picked up this time.
"Hi Quack!" Karl greeted, placing the phone on the table clicking speaker so Sapnap could hear.
"Hey Karl" Quackity mumbled, his voice croaking, he had once again pulled an all nighter, only having had 12 hours sleep in a total of 6 days.

"Baby, you alright? You sound sick." Sapnap inputted.

Quackity tried his best to chuckle a little and lighten the mood, he didn't want them to worry, "I'm fine Pandas, just tired" he half lied. He was very tired.

"Are you sure? I know you've been studying hard lately, you need to get some rest. The messages you send are all after 2 in the morning." Karl added, frowning.

"I'm fine guys, really." He protested, "I'm taking a break this weekend alright?" He lied again, he actually planned on studying still.

Sapnap hummed, giving Karl a suspicious glance, he just frowned back. They both knew he wasn't alright.

"So how are you guys doing?" Quackity asked, changing the subject.

"Pretty good actually. We did a stream today" Karl answered, "we wanted to invite you but assumed you were busy studying." He added.

"Thanks. I'll try and join the next stream." He yawned, "did you have fun?"

"Yeah, we finally finished that treehouse" he smiled.

"The overly complex one we made with George?" He tiredly chuckled.

"Yep" sapnap answered.

They chatted for a few more minutes, nowhere near enough time for any of them to be satisfied, but Quackity was starting to get antsy, struggling to concentrate and only thinking about Law studies.
"Um. Guys I'm sorry I need to go to something. I'll speak to you soon okay?"

"Alright, baby, we love you, make sure you eat and get some sleep." Karl said lovingly.

"I love you both too. I'll see you next weekend." He stated, they said their byes and hung up.

He immediately went back to studying.

He thought it was a good thing that he was putting so much time and effort into it, but in reality it was unhealthy and becoming a habit.

He didn't eat dinner, and went to sleep at 4am.