Change of Hearts 2 (Pinoy BL - Book 4 of S.O.A.S.F)

Chapter 17 - Happy Birthday!

Calvin's POV

"Calvin, do you see yourself as a straight guy?" Ace asked while squinting his eyes.

"Oo naman, pre, p*ta 'yan! Hindi ako bading!" I exclaimed then I sighed deeply at bigla akong nag-alala, "Pero bakit gano'n, Ace... bakit nahilig ako sa ganito? Sa BL, tapos ngayon nagsisimula na sa yaoi. At ang masaklap... Nagugustuhan ko na din si Eithan. P*tang ina, pre, di ko magets!"

"Why? Nasabuyan ka ba ng blessings of the gays? Haha!" Ace jokingly asked.

"Oo! Pre! Si Tara kasi winisikan ako! Potek 'yan! Ayan tuloy! Umeepkto!" I exclaimed.

"'Yup, it's effective 100%! Haha! But kidding aside, naiintindihan kita, Calvin. Alam ko gulong gulo ka na. Eventually, dadating ka din sa point na maiintindihan mo 'yung nararamdaman mo. But let me ask you one thing, si Eithan lang 'yung guy na gusto mo?" Ace asked.

"Pre, siya lang wala ng iba. P*ta 'yan. I mean, di ko kaya maatim 'yung sarili ko na may ibang lalake na humahawak sa akin! Pero kapag si Eithan lang gumawa, okay sa akin eh. Bakit gano'n? Ibig sabihin, malakas lang tama ko kay Eithan tapos straight pa rin ako ano?" I said.

"Calvin... I have one piece of advice for you... that might help you realize your feelings para kay Eithan." Ace uttered and naging seryoso siya.

"Ano 'yan, Ace? Para naman hindi na ako malito." I asked.

"Calvin... if you think you love someone, be it a guy or a girl... you don't have to label yourself as straight or gay. If you love someone... end of story. Wag mo ng alamin if you're gay,straight or bisexual... basta ang alamin mo lang, if you deeply love that person, no matter what happens, you'll be contented." Ace said while looking at me straight in the eyes.

"Does it mean na kung mahal ko na si Eithan, hindi hadlang kung tingin ko sa sarili ko na straight ako or hindi?" I asked him.

"Yup. It's just a gender preference thing that was made up a long time ago. I don't believe in that sh*t anymore and that's my opinion. Fight me if you must, but I'll love someone so deeply even if you think of me as gay, straight, or bi or whatever you want to call me... wala akong pakialam. Mamatay ka kakaisip, basta ako, magmamahal lang ako ng tao na gusto ko mahalin." Ace answered with conviction.

"Alam mo, pre, tama ka... Pero kasi, sa ngayon hindi ko pa din kaya. Natatakot ako masabihan ng bading kapag nalaman nila na may gusto ako kay Eithan. Lalo na si Kuya William? Ano na lang sasabihin niya? Tsaka pagtatawanan ako ng mga tao... at baka hindi na sila makipagkaibigan sa akin." I said habang medyo nalulungkot ako.

"Maybe right now hindi mo pa kaya since this is new to you. I've been there, where I've denied my feelings for 5 guys... ang tagal ko talagang sinabi na straight ako and never ako mahuhulog sa kahit sino sa kanila... But in the end look at me... look where I am now... Sobra kong mahal si Zeus." Ace said while smiling.

"Limang lalake? P*ta ka, Ace! Limang lalake nanligaw sayo? Tapos straight ka pa sa lagay na 'yun? Hindi ka na straight no'n pre." I asked.

"Well, that's my preference back then. Alam ko sa sarili ko na straight ako noon... Until one day, I came up to the point na why do I need to label myself as straight or not? Basta ako, I'll be happy with the person that I'll choose for the rest of my life... and guess what? I'm very happy right now and wala akong pakialam sa sinasabi ng mga tao towards me." Ace answered.