Change of Hearts 2 (Pinoy BL - Book 4 of S.O.A.S.F)

Chapter 30 - Fake Smile

Zion's POV

Do I actually have Primo in the bag? Should I use this chance kung saan sobra na siyang nasaktan?

Pero, what if marealize niya in the long run na hindi pala ako ang mahal niya? Will I be ready to accept that fate?

I know how Primo loves Pocholo so much... but for now, I'll have to do what I need to do... and that's to shower Primo with love.

And in the event na maging panakip butas na lang ako for him... It's fine for me. I know I'm not the prince or the leading man in his life in this story... It's Pocholo and he always will be. But I'm here doing my job, and that's to make sure that Primo will feel loved.

First time ko nakita si Primo, he has already captured my heart. I don't know why but his cuteness just overflows for me.

Marami na akong babaeng natipuhan, but Primo is different... and I like different. Lalo na 'yung dimples niya which makes him the cutest when he smiles... that always captivates my heart.

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But, seeing him cry so much, doon ako nasasaktan at sana, kaya kong takpan 'yung sugat na natamo niya.

"Primo, okay ka na ba?" I asked him while we're sitting on a bench.

"Hindi ko alam kung magiging okay pa ba ako, Zion. Siguro, sinumpa ako sa past life ko na masasaktan ako kapag nagmahal ako." Primo said.

Then, I caressed his hair and laid his head onto my left shoulder.

"If you feel na sobra ka ng nasasaktan... just let me know, I'll try to ease the pain for you. Sana mapagaan ko kahit papaano." I said to him.

I know I'm really not the one he needs, and that's a fact, but I wish Primo would just open his heart... just a little bit at masilip niya ako.

"Bakit gano'n, Zion? Akala ko mahal niya rin ako? Sinabi niya na ng harapan eh... Tapos sa huli, iba pa rin 'yung gusto niya..." Primo said.

Kung pwede ko lang sabihin kay Primo na ako na lang sana 'yung mahalin niya... I can give the world to him.

But, I can't.

I don't want to push him...

I want him to freely choose who he really loves.

"Maybe he has his reasons, Primo." I said to him.

"'He'? Kilala mo siya, Zion?" Primo asked suprisingly at napatingin siya sa akin while his eyes are still teary.

"I've known... I've always known, Primo." I said and smiled at him while wiping his tears, "And gusto ko lang sabihin is that I admire you for keeping yourself together for a very long time. Sobrang tatag mo, Primo."

"Sorry, Zion... pagod na ko eh. Sobra na akong nasaktan..." Primo uttered.

"You can rest your heart for a while, Primo. Pwede ka muna tumigil panandalian. Then, kapag kaya mo na ulit, tsaka ka lumaban... tsaka ka bumangon ulit. Wag mo pilitin sarili mo kapag hindi mo na kaya. Masisira ka lang." I said to him.