A.K.'s POV
There it is... William just said it straight to me that he likes me... that he wants me... that he doesn't like nobody else but me...
Pero...
I'm scared... I'm really scared to love again.
Nandito na eh, he's here asking for my love, but I just said sorry.
Am I still traumatized about the thing that shattered my heart before? Hindi na din ba ako marunong magmahal? Did I forget to appreciate and mas pinili ko na lumayo sa mga taong nagsasabi na mahal ako since natatakot na akong magamit?
I'm sorry, William... hindi ikaw ang problema...
It's me... I'm the problem.
I'm too scared to deal with this thing called love and I don't even know how to handle it.
Natatakot na kasi ako na magamit talaga... and what happened with Zeke... I really did regret that...
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Since I'm still at school, I went to the Art Club room to gather my other things since gusto ko na lang umuwi at mag-isa.
I can't also face William right now dahil sa ginawa kong pag turn down sa kanya.
After ko makuha ang gamit ko, I went to the parking lot at sumakay na ako sa kotse ko...
I started the engine and drove... but then, bigla akong natauhan ng nasa kalagitnaan na ako ng daan na hindi ako nagdadrive pauwi but somewhere else... and my mind and body is moving on its own.
Narealize ko na lang na papunta ako sa sea side and that's where I parked my car.
Afterwards, tumungo muna ako sa isang convenience store to buy a couple of beer in can and decided to watch the sunset alone...
Then, as I sat in a huge wall, doon ko na binuksan ang beer in can at nagsimula na ako uminom.
"If I was the old A.K., would I accept William's love right away?" I said to myself and drank the beer in can.
"A.K.?" someone uttered and as I looked to my right, to my surprise... it's Angela.
"Bakit ka nandito, Angela?" I asked her.
"Dito kasi 'yung daan ko pauwi. Eh nakita ko 'yung kotse mo so naisipan ko na hanapin ka. Bakit ka umiinom mag-isa?" Angela asked as she sat beside me.
"Gusto ko lang maging light and happy for a while... even just for a bit. May nasaktan kasi akong tao eh." I said to her.
Angela sighed deeply and said, "Si William ba?" she asked.
I nodded slowly and drank the beer in my can while still looking at the sunset.
"A.K., gusto ko na sa akin manggaling 'to, and if ever, sana makatulong 'to sa iniisip mo..." Angela said.
I didn't utter any word and pinakinggan ko na lang siya while still cherishing the sun that's setting down from the sky.
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