being alive | glee

23. PURE IMAGINATION

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE |
pure imagination

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SEBASTIAN IS CONFUSED. He's in an unidentified living room and there's a bunch of small children running around while a football game plays in the background. There's a beer in his hand and he's sitting with a group of guys he doesn't recognize, but he's moving like this is all just a normal activity for him. He pulls the bottle up to his lips just as he feels hands rub over his shoulders.

He's settled on the fact that he has to be dreaming, so he expects the person behind him to be Jason, but he turns back to see Kurt instead. He looks older—not in a bad way, actually he looks positively handsome. He has a little bit of a beard and isn't that a surprise?

"Honey, you wanna start up the grill?" Kurt asks, his eyes so earnest that Sebastian can't even clock the endearment as a joke. This Kurt who is so far removed from the one he knows seems genuine.

And this Sebastian that he is cohabiting right now nods, pressing a kiss to this Kurt's cheek and going to their porch to start grilling. He feels weird. It's enough that in this realm of his subconscious not only is he close to Kurt but he's romantic with him. He's never thought of Kurt like that before and it's relatively scary.

He's just started up the grill when he feels arms wrap around his waist and he half expects Jason to be there clinging to his back, but he turns his head and sees tufts of chestnut hair and knows it's still Kurt, and the thought isn't paralyzing like he might have previously imagined.

In fact, it's just comforting. Sebastian leans back into Kurt's embrace and feels Kurt's chin hook over his shoulder.

"What are you doing?" Sebastian says fondly, staring back at the man holding him.

Kurt smirks back at him. "Seducing you. Is it working?"

Sebastian lets out a puff of laughter. "You know all my weaknesses, Hummel."

"Give me a kiss then, Smythe." Kurt smiles warmly. He looks so happy. Sebastian isn't used to seeing him this happy.

And despite the fact that his subconscious is all kinds of confused and almost feels like he's cheating on Jason, his physical body leans in and presses his lips to Kurt's. His lips taste a little bit like the margarita he's been sipping on and so Sebastian turns in his arms to kiss him just a bit deeper.

A voice breaks them from their lip lock. "If you burn my burger, I'll actually kill you."

Sebastian startles when he pulls away from Kurt's kiss to see Jason in all his older glory. He's just as handsome as Kurt is—his hair is longer and he has a beard now. That's a new development, but Sebastian is strangely attracted to it.

"Hello, handsome." Kurt grins, leaning in to peck Jason's lips quickly and as soon as they're done, Jason leans in to kiss Sebastian too.

Some part of Sebastian is staring wide eyed at the exchange. He's never thought of it before—all three of them together. He's had fleeting moments of attraction to Kurt, of course, because who wouldn't? But he's never remotely thought of them all being together as a trio.

Just as he hears a child running outside and screaming "daddy," he wakes up.

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Sebastian startles awake sweating and gasping for breath. He sits up, rubbing his hands over his face. He looks over to see Jason's sleeping figure beside them and feels like he wants to scream. The dream was scarily real. It really felt like he was kissing them both and they made a home together as a trio. He can see that little boy running up to them that looked just like Jason being one of their own and he yearns for it—but he has to stop that train of thought in its tracks because he's with Jason, and not only is Kurt with someone else, he's never hinted at being attracted to either of them. He knows Jason still has some lingering feelings for Kurt, but he's not so dumb to think that if he had a chance with Kurt for real, he would even give Sebastian a second thought.