Endlessly trying... (gonkillu)

Chapter 10

(Killuas pov)

He slowly unbuttoned my skirt and tossed it aside leaving me in my thigh highs and underwear. "Are you comfortable with this?" He asked as I nodded, I trusted him. I could feel that he was turned on and I'm sure he could tell that I was turned on too.

"God you're so sexy, in these thigh highs," he said, touching and tracing my thighs making me shiver. He leaned down and kissed my thighs making me let out small hums and moans As he got closer to my erection.

"Can I take off your underwear? Are you comfortable with that?" I nodded and he slowly pulled them down watching me for any discomfort. Only thing in the way now was my thigh highs, even though they weren't really in the way and he was probably going to keep them on. This is the first time a man I actually wanted to see me naked, I was a little nervous of what he would think.

He kept on the thigh highs as he flipped me over so my hips were in the air. "I'm not gonna fuck you today, don't worry, I'm just gonna eat you out," I froze, nerves shooting into my veins "wait! But it's gross down there," I said, completely insecure.

"No, you're good, I don't have to, but I really want to," he said as he rubbed small circles into my hips and ass. "Fine," I said, I was actually a little excited, I have never had any form of oral done on me, I wonder what it will feel like?

"Ok, I'm gonna start," I nodded as I felt him spread my cheeks spears and lay some gentle kisses down there, then I felt his tongue slide across my entrance.

I felt his tongue wiggling its way inside, starting to stretch me open. This definitely was not his first time doing this.

"Oh!" I moaned as he started to move inside me, I felt embarrassed and it felt different than I thought it would, but he didn't stop, his tongue was rubbing all around my walls making me a mess. "Oh god Gon!" I said arching my back and head flying back as I withered in pleasure. He started to push in and out fucking me with his tongue.

I grabbed a fist full of his hair and shoved his face deeper. "Oh yes Gon right there!" I called out as he did as I asked and continued to stimulate that spot, I was a mess as he continued, I was breathing hard as I could feel myself getting close, my first orgasm, I was excited.

I felt his hand slowly make its way from rubbing my hips to my front, where he started to stroke me well, still eating me out and I was completely lost. There was so much going on I couldn't comprehend it as my orgasm fell over me, him pumping me through it as I let out a long loud moan, and it helped me relax.

I was breathing hard, my chest rising and falling Like crazy. "How was that?" He asked as I gripped him and pulled him down with me, as I flipped us both over. The sheets needed to be washed but he stayed with me for a little bit, just letting everything set in.

"I'm gonna grab a towel and some sheets, I'll be right back," I nodded "but what about you?" I asked referring to his boner, "don't worry about it, I'll will it down, I'm not gonna make you do anything tonight, you look so tired, I just want you to sleep," I smiled why is he so sweet, any other guy I bet would want something done about it.

He left the room. I can't believe he just did that, it felt so different. I was happy he was here and listened to me and helped me through everything with my dad and parents. I should try to contact my siblings again, maybe I can introduce them to Gon.

He came back with some water, a towel and fresh sheets. "Here you go, take it easy," he said, handing me the water as he pressed the warm towel to my stomach tenderly wiping up any liquids away. When he was done he tossed the towel in the dirty clothes basket and turned back to me.

"Can you go sit on the other bed, just so I can change the sheets?" I nodded, sitting up, my legs a little shaking from the pleasure I just got but they were fine. I put back on my boxers and threw on a pair of his sweatpants even though they were big on me.

He Changed the sheets quickly and then he pulled me back to the bed after taking off his shirt and cuddling me, "did it feel good?" I nodded, "that's good, you know, I really do like you, like a lot, I think that it's to the point that I might love you," he said in all seriousness. My heart swelled in my chest as tears slowly fell.

"Hey, it's ok, what's wrong? I'm sorry if I'm going too fast," He said, holding me close. "You're the best thing to ever happen to me, I'm so lucky to have someone who cares for me, I thought I would always be alone in this world, with no one to help me, but now you're here and I'm so lucky," Gon smiled at me and kissed me gently.

"I love you so much Killua," he said and my tears stopped and I smiled "I love you too," I said snuggling into his chest, we laid in silence for a little bit until he spoke up.

"If we were to be together for a long time, and we did decide to one day get sexual active, I want you to be as comfortable as possible, so I just want you to know that I'm never gonna push you for anything, and if I do, like I'm drunk or something, seriously just push me off or tell me no, please," he said holding me close to him.

I smiled "thank you, for everything, I'm so happy I met you," I said kissing his chest.

"Of course Lovely, it's late and you need rest, go ahead and try to fall asleep, I promise I won't leave you, I'll be here all night with you," I smiled and nodded, slowly starting to fall asleep in his arms, my cheek squished against his muscular pecs that I loved so much.

He put his hand on my head, gently massaging my scalp making me tired and in a sort of trance from how relaxing it felt, his eyes were closed, his mouth slightly parted breathing deep as he continued his movements trying to get me to fall asleep, and it was working really good cause the next thing I remember is waking up from a scary dream, I felt sweaty and scared.

"Why tonight?" I said as a couple tears fell out of my eyes. I got off of Gon and went to the bathroom, wiping my tears and getting some more water, I climbed back into bed over him , I felt his grip tighten on me. "You ok?" Was all he said in a deep morning voice, he clearly just woke up, probably from me moving and crying.

"I just had a bad dream, I'm sorry I woke up, I'm sorry," I said as he nodded "so you wanna talk about it?" He asked "maybe tomorrow, I just wanna go back to sleep." He nodded and kissed my forehead "please do, I wanna hear about it and help you," I nodded and kissed him once before going back into his chest. "I love you," I heard his squeak.

"I love you too,"