Endlessly trying... (gonkillu)

Chapter 23

(Killuas pov)

The week went by in a boring cycle, everyday being the same and it was finally Friday, the day before the dance. I had to get a dress. I went to multiple stores but didn't find anything that I thought matched or looked pretty on me.

I was about to give up looking in the last store when I was black tight, had a leg slit and was lacy on the top, the back was open and it also came with black gloves! I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked pretty. I smiled as I took it off, folding it neatly and going up to the cashier. I paid and smiled as I drove home.

I got home and was excited for tomorrow, I couldn't wait for Gon to see my dress. Gon wasn't home. I think he went to a bar with Zushi and kurapika. I took a shower then went down to the living room.

There were a couple of the other guys watching a movie so I took a seat next to ace who smiled at me. Throughout the movie, Ace would touch me. I'm not sure if it was accidental but I didn't wanna call him out cause I didn't wanna embarrass him. I just tried to ignore it. It wasn't really anything.

He would just brush my thigh or waist. I ignored it for the most part and kept watching and once the boys got home I went up to them. "Here they said tossing me Gon, he said he wanted to see you, the only thing that he talks about when he's drunk is you," they said as I blushed. "Killua!" Gon said excited as he stumbled a bit walking over to me and hugged me. "I love you Killua," he said as I blushed.

"Come on, let's get you to bed," I said, putting one of his arms over my shoulder. I pretty much dragged him up the stairs. We got to our room and I put him on the bed. Making sure to lay him on his side in case he threw up. "Killua~" he said, reaching for me.

"One minute, you smell like alcohol, I'm gonna change your clothes," I said, grabbing a pair of sweatpants and a tank top. I walked over to him and pulled his shirt off and pants. All of a sudden he grabbed me, making me yelp in surprise.

He pulled my head and kissed me. I kissed back his hands were on my hips then he slowly moved them down and I felt his hand grip my ass  then smack it lightly and I pulled away and looked at him "Gon," I said as he smirked up at me. "Killua you look so seggyyy, come on let's have some fun," he slurred out as he pulled me closer to him again. "Gon wait," I said as he put his hand under my pants and boxers, squeezing me again.

"No, wait," I said, pulling his hand away. "I don't wanna sleep with you, well you're drunk," I said looking in his eyes as he looked confused. "Come baby just take off your clothes I'll make you feel so good," he said as I started to feel a pit in my stomach. "Gon, do you love me?" I asked scared, thinking about how he could only be with me for my body.

"Of course! You're my favorite person in the whole world," he said, tugging at my shirt as I pulled at his hands to get them off. "No more, time for bed," I said as he groaned "noooo, I want you Killua~"

"Gon I'm serious-" "your my boyfriend you're supposed to sleep with me when I tell you too," he slurred angrily as I felt my heartbreak. "Wow," I said as I got off of him. "Make sure to sleep on your side, I don't want you to choke," I said before grabbing one of the blankets and going to a different room.

I grabbed his keys and went to one of the unused rooms, I locked keys elf in before curling into the blankets. I felt like crying. I couldn't sleep that whole night even though I tried. I looked at my phone at the time, it was 3:43 I groaned and got up. I went to the kitchen grabbing a cup of water, some aspirin and went back to our room.

I set the water on the nightstand next to Gons now sleeping body. Idiot was sleeping on back so I turned him over. I kissed his forehead and went back to the room I was sleeping in. And felt a little better making me able to fall asleep for the last few hours of darkness.