Endlessly trying... (gonkillu)

Chapter 32

(Killuas pov)

About a month had passed and My cuts were mostly healed, everything was going well.
School was ok and Gon was doing good but during this month I feel me and Gon have sort of fallen out a little bit. Maybe it's kinda my fault and maybe it's his but we both get home from school, do our homework then go to bed. We do go on Andy cute dates or any of that any more.

Sometimes I feel like he's tired of me and just wants to party. I was currently dying in bed when the door opened and he was home. "Hey," I said, not turning to look at him. "Your back a little late...where were you?" I asked softly. "Class ended late," he said blankly. "So class ended three hours late?" I said to him a little annoyed and very skeptical.

"Yeah, there was a study hour I decided to go to," I said softly. "Ok, you were seeing a girl or another guy right?" I said nervously. "No Killua, I wasn't," he said in a bit of a harsher tone. "Ok, sorry," I said, rolling my eyes. I heard him groan and start to take off his clothes to get changed. I turned to watch. His back was facing me and I froze.

'T-those aren't mine,' I thought as I looked at the fresh hickies on his back. The shirt soon covered them and I turned back to face the wall as I  teared up. I don't know what to do! Do I say something? I felt his side of the bed go down and I squeaked, "did you eat yet?" He asked as I nodded since I knew if I talked it would crack my voice, "how was your day?" He asked as I didn't say anything.

'Am I sure I didn't give them those hickies? No I don't give him back hickies cause I never have back access, at the most I would be able to do would be shoulder, he always fucks me I wouldn't be able to give him back hickies, so someone else has to be giving him back hickies,' I thought as I started to cry.

"Hey Killua I wanted to-are you crying?" He turned to me as I covered my eyes "why are you crying?" He asked in a soft tone. "Gon? Are you cheating on me? Yes or no? I cried softly. "Wah? Killua, that's crazy, I'm not cheating on you! What are you even talking about?" She said, the professor is on his back. "Yes or no?" He didn't answer the right way.

"No! I'm not! What is wrong with you?!" He asked, grabbing me harshly. "What has been going on with you?! Huh? You're making up all these actuations and asking me all this stuff like I'm some sort of bad guy! Killua I'm your boyfriend but recently you have been acting like such a little bitch! Maybe I should just chat with you! At least they would be a better partner than you have been recently!" He yelled as my eyes widened and I started to cry harder.

I grabbed a blanket and just cried. "Wait Killua, come back honey I didn't mean to say that," he said as I wrapped the blankets around me and I walked over to the door. Gon walked after me and grabbing my wrist hard, "wait Killua-"your hurting me! Let me go!" I said tearing my wrist from him. I got out of the room slamming the door.

I know where I'm going, to someone who actually cares about me. I knocked on the small dorm room door and it opened. "Oh hey-oh you're crying, come in," he said as I nodded and came in and he closed the door. I sat on his bed and he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me letting me cry. He pulled me down on the small bed where I began to calm down.

"Killua, what's been going on?" He said as I looked at him. "Ace, I don't know, me and Gon used to have such a good relationship but we have been so cold and focused on work and school we don't see each other that much anymore and today just a little bit ago he was changing in our room and I saw these hickies on his back and I never give him hickies on his back,"

"I asked him if he was cheating on me because he noticed I was fraying and he kinda told me I was stupid for thinking that but he didn't say yes or no so I asked again and he blew up saying that I was a bitch and I don't know," I said crying into his shoulder, "I don't know what to do," I cry softly as he hugged me and held me. "Yeah, that's pretty scary huh? Well you think he's cheating-"I know he's cheating," I said softly, "well, why not fight fire with fire? You know you got a perfectly good looking boy right here," he said as I let out a little laugh.