"What if it was the prince who needed saving?"
Not receiving an ounce of love even in his childhood, he became heartless. His cold exterior scared people away, and not to mention his detached, unemotional personality. Haunted by his past, he was use...
I watch in cold silence as he leaves before looking at the window one last time. I hide behind the curtain, not wanting him to see me. I don't deserve him.
Finally, the crushing truth hits me and I crumble to the ground. A hand covers my mouth as I sob uncontrollably.
I'm so sorry.
I love you.
He hates me. Of course, he does. Why wouldn't he? After all, I pushed him away without even giving him a reason. I couldn't bear to talk to him properly. The guilt was crushing me.
I was too attached to him for my own sake.
I thought about what mom said to me before I left. I suppose she was right. It doesn't matter how much I loved him, it still wasn't safe for me. I needed to pull away before it got any more serious. Then, I wonder. How much more serious could it get?
I lay on the cold floor, staring at the ceiling. All of our memories come to haunt me one by one. His face when I told him that I didn't feel anything haunts me more than anything else.
You're so, so incredibly beautiful.
I thought I lost you.
You're everything.
He looks at you like I look at you. I don't like it.
I let the dread of the day set in my chest. I hurt him. I'm so fucking selfish.
Suddenly, my thoughts are interrupted by the ding of my phone. I pick it up and hold it in front of my face, wincing as the bright light hits my eyes.
Felix🍧: Are you okay?
Me: Fine.
Felix🍧: You wanna talk about it?
The guilt sets in once more. I didn't tell Felix, Bianca, Royce or Roxy about this.
Felix🍧: Zane isn't telling us what happened. Please, Astraea.
Me: We just...kind of ended things.
My hands shake in front of me when I say that.
Felix🍧: What?! Why?
Me: I just don't think I'm good for him.
Felix🍧: You know that he only smiles sincerely when he's with you, right?
Me: That doesn't matter now, Felix.
Felix🍧: Well, fine. Break up with him all you want. But what did I do? We're still friends, right?
The tears trickle down my face staring at the message. I'm sorry, Felix. I'm so sorry.
Me: I don't know. I kinda just need space right now.
Felix🍧: Of course. Just...call me if you need a midnight Icee or something.
Me: I will. Take care, Felix.
Felix🍧: You too, Ashtray.
The phone falls on my face, crushing my nose. But I don't have the energy to shout in pain. I just kind of stay there, staring at nothing.
I ruined everything.
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