Andy Biersack fanfiction - Accidents Happen *COMPLETED* （≧∇≦）

Chapter 26 - Wingman

--Tessa's POV-

"I don't love you." Andy said, no emotion striking his voice at all.

My heart traveled up my throat and I felt like I was going to be sick. What? So what, did he...use me, then? Suddenly, anger rushed through me, filling every last bone in my body. Ignoring the pain, I got up and looked down at Andy furiously. "Are you /bipolar/ or something?!" I shouted at him. I heard whispers from the kitchen. "Wha-no, I just don't want to-" I cut him off. I laughed sarcastically. "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't realize I became your next toy. You haven't changed at all, Andy, and I'm done saying yes to whatever you fucking say." I'm done being pushed around, I'm done doing what everyone else wants. This is me, dammit. This is what I'm thinking, this is how I feel, and if he can't just accept it then I might as well pick up Michael and go home. "Tessa, that's not--" Andy began to get up, and I stood my ground. "Don't you dare say you said that to protect me, Andy! You can't even admit it to yourself, can you? You don't want to love me!" I stormed back and forth, my hands moving as I talked. Andy looked regretful, but I wasn't taking it. "Tessa, I didn't mean that, I do love you, I just don't want you to get even more hurt than-" I snapped towards him, not letting him finish again. "Too late! Too, fucking, late! Here I was, forgiving you and thinking you really changed. But you're the same way I left you." He didn't speak this time, but I continued. "I'll be sleeping on the staff bus from now on." I said, beginning to gather my things. "Tessa!" Andy said, his low voice turning into an aggressive shout. I jumped slightly, pushing my anxiety down my throat and facing him. "Would you stop yelling at me and hear me out!?" He asked, his voice not lowering. My submissive side taking over, I nodded. "Neither of us are equipped for this, okay!? I don't know how to have a relationship any more than you do! I'm trying to protect you from me, because if I did love you I'd just be a big bundle of...shit! All the time! And I'd constantly be hurting you! I don't want that to happen, okay!?" He shouted, making me flinch. His expression was immidiently apologetic. Neither of us spoke for a moment. "I know that wasn't the best way to handle it, Tess...But I couldn't live with myself if I let my emotions get the best of me." He said, lowering his voice. In some way, I knew he was right. He had changed. I love him, but I can't keep forgiving him. "How am I supposed to trust you?" I asked, my voice a hoarse whisper. Andy looked at me with an expression I couldn't read. "You don't have to yet, Tess...Let's just take things slowly, okay?" He said. "I can't take this slow, Andy! I love you, and I'm tired of hiding it. Either you love me or you don't." I said, folding my arms over my chest and trying not to cry. "I do love
you, Tessa." Andy said, and I could sense he was holding back. "Look Andy, I love you, I really do, but this is too much for me. I'll be at your concerts, I'll stop by the store for some Advil, but I'm gonna stay on the spare staff bus." I said, continuing to gather my things. Andy's face fell. "Tessa, I promise I can..." He trailed off, my eyes meeting his for a moment before I picked up my bags and headed out.

--Andy's POV-

She picked up her bags and pushed aside the curtain, and I didn't chase her. Why didn't I chase her? I watched her leave, under the eyes of Sammi and the others. Sammi especially was watching me. My mind flurred with thoughts. Regrets for everything. I felt a hand on my shoulder; Ashley. "Don't worry, Andy. Things will get better." He said. I pushed him away, heading into my bunk.

--Tessa's POV-

I knocked on the door of the plain white bus, clutching my stomach slightly. A man with a microphone answered the door. "Hello?" He said, lookingat me with a confused expression. "Hi, I'm Tessa Bluins, the writer for Black Veil Brides...I was wondering if I can stay on the staff bunk?" I said. "Sure, can we see your I.D?" The man asked. I nodded and rummaged through my bag, finally finding the small card and handing it to him. He looked it over for a minute and then nodded, handing it back to me. "Sure, come right in. We have a few empty bunks."He said. I stepped in. This bus was a lot smaller, and there was no kitchen or living room. Just a small space for extra baggage and then bunks. I cringed at the smell. I missed Michael. I claimed a bunk and pulled out my notebook, figuring I was overdue for some writing.

'After the first show, a huge party is held in a glorious venue. Drinks, dancing, and mosh pits await the guests, and of course only the best music around.'

I wrote a little more after that, but my mind was lost. I thought about Jinxx. I knew he didn't mean what he'd said, but it still hurt. Somehow, it didn't hurt as much as I'd thought. I layed down, only to be greeted by someone. A voice. "Hey!" The voice said, it was male. I jumped up, looking over at the man. He was, I believe, Sammi's friend from the party. Vic, I think it was? He wasn't a staff, was he? "Oh, hey, uhm, Vic?" I said, the smell of the bus hitting me like a grenade to the face. "Yeah, you're Tessa, right?" I nodded. "I know you're a friend of Sammi's, and I heard you were staying on the staff bus." He said. Yeah, so why are you here...? "I know the staff bus isn't the greatest place, and we have an extra spot on our bus. You wanna stay with us?" Vic asked. "I-I'm fine here. Thanks though." I said with a smile. This tour bus sucks, but I don't even know this guy. "Oh come on, you can't tell me you like this place." Vic said. I bit my lip, remaining silent. He was a friend of Sammi's, but...I can't just trust anyone who walks along. "It'll all be on me. C'mon, it's a lot better than this cramped place. Plus, our bus is even bigger than the Black Veil Brides bus." Vic tempted. "And our fridge is stocked with microwavable burritos!" He laughed. I smiled, but I didn't have the energy to laugh. But what if I had a bad dream and one of them heard? I shook my head. "You're too kind. I'm going to have to turn you down." I said politely. Vic puckered his bottom lip and gave me what I assumed was an attempt at puppy-dog eyes. "Pleeassee?" He asked. I thought. It was a lot better than this place. I nodded and looked up at him. "Okay."

--Andy's POV-

Jinxx huffed in the door, and I immediately met eyes with him. "And-" Jinxx began. "Jin-" We both cut each other off. "Guess we need to talk." I said. I followed him outside.

--Vic's POV-

Tessa walked into the bus, her chocolate-brown hair flowing delicately on her shoulders as she set down her bags atop an empty bunk. "Guys, this is Tessa." I said. She stood up and gave a cute, awkward wave to everyone. "Hey." Tony said. Jamie's eyes were glued to his phone, and Mike was eating something. "I need to go pick up some painkillers for my stomach." She said, her deep hazel eyes meeting mine. "Nah, I got some." I said,opening the cabinet and chucking her a small blue box of Advil. "Oh, uh, thanks." Tessa said with a slight smile. "No problem darling." I said. I noticed she blushed at my words and laughed a little. She got a water bottle from the side pocket of her bag and took two of the pills. "Thank you." She said. "I'm gonna go change and get ready for bed." She said. I nodded. "Thanks again for...uhm, everything."