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chapter 10

Namjoon POV

I can't stop thinking about him. He said his mom is Kim Seokjin, I hope my ears didn't betray me that time! I heard him clearly!

I saw how he entered that building. The same building I was earlier, the place I've got argument with Jin and Yoongi after  presenting our project proposal, he goes in like he owns the place, the guard greets and opened the door for him and his friends

Does he knows who's his dad? Did Jin told him? Maybe he knows! He should know!

I'm having lots of questions after meeting him and the only person can answer me is his mom tho I'm pretty sure he won't talk to me unless its about business

The only option for me to know him more are through my private investigators

Who is his dad
where he study.
His schedule.
His friends.
All about him.

I'm having this intuition that i must know him, that i should protect him and his mom in case something happen, i shouldn't forget that I'm living with the most unpredictable person I know

Jungkook and I came home and found my wife drunk again with a wine bottle in hand laying in the couch inside her room

We didn't share a room after she gave birth to our son, i make it cleared to her that I can't do this. I cant be with her. We living under one roof but we have this silent agreement

She wants to be with me, stay being my wife tho everybody knows in the house how we treat each other. I'm civilized to her but she can't deal with my rules that's why she's always wasted or out partying

I don't like calling her wife but what choice do I have?! From the day I told her that I can't love her the way I love Jin she's being like this, I cared about her but she's so adamant for her love to me, wasting her time being with me

I can't do anything for her, she won't divorce me, the only friend she's calling is my bestfriend Jackson that I've known since college days and her bestfriend Hwasa that owns a hospital in Ilsan.

I owe them a lot for taking good care of her

There were at times that i can't find her, it's already late when Jackson called me saying he's with Hayoung and Hwasa staying with them in the club

He came in the house later carrying her for she's so wasted and can't stand on her own, I talked to her the next morning to make a decision

I cared about her, i want her to find the one who could love her, being with me is a waste of time but she can't understand and insist that i can learn to love her

But how? I can't even love her as a friend.

Living with her is always been like this. I just get used to it. Its no used talking to her, she wouldn't listen to me anyway

I carry her in her bed, tucking her in when she woke up, she gave me a look and push me when all i want is to put a blanket on her. She start to curse and shouting.

"Why can't you care for me as wife huh?! Why can't you love me!!! I gave you a son but you treating me like a garbage?!"

" I hate you Kim Namjoon! I fvcking hate you! You and your bitch! I will ruined his reputation, i will make sure he will live like hell! Whatever you do, you can't be with that bitch!"

"I will do everything just for you not to be with him!" She shouts at the top of her lungs

"I know you met him again! After all this years! You're still following him like a dog! Does your team makes him approved your project proposal?! Of course they will! Your team are brilliant!  There's a lot of companies out there but you still chose him! You chose his company! All you can see is him!" She scream, throwing all of her pillow to me