Remind Me I'm Alive (Bechloe)

Letter

Beca,

I don't really know how to tell you this or what to say that won't make this as horrible as it's going to be. So I guess I'm just going to have to rip the band-aid off, as they say. We can't see each other anymore. It absolutely breaks my heart to have to do this, but we really can't. You need to stay away from me. I'm not going to be dramatic and tell you that you need to forget me (let's face it. I'm impossible to forget ;), but I also don't want you to. I don't want you to forget all the times we laughed, cried, and thrown fits over stupid things that will never really matter. I know I'll never forget you and what you've taught me.

I just wanted to let you know how much I've enjoyed the time we've spent together. Getting to know you and learning from you has been an experience I'll never forget. I've loved the small talks and arguments about stupid things like what type of chip was better or what season was best. It's fall, by the way.

You're such a special person, Beca. Your heart, your wit, and your intelligence are unlike something I've never seen before. I admire everything you do, and I just know you'll do incredible things in the future.

You have come so far from the shy woman I met at a house party who could barely meet my eyes. My heart knew you were special that night in Denny's. I could see you, and although I couldn't quite put my finger on it, I could see the pain in your eyes. I could also see the hope and want for happiness. Now you're way more outspoken with both myself and within a group of people. You are growing and overcoming so much, and I couldn't be more proud of you. Always remember that everyone has bad days, and it's okay to feel down and ask for help.

I want you to know that I wish you the best. I want you to be happy and successful. Don't let anyone push you around. Especially not the sorry excuses they call your boss and coworker. Really, Gary and Steve don't deserve anything from you. They don't deserve your hard work. Something I've always admired about you was your work ethic. No matter how much you loved or hated a task or job, you always gave it your best effort. To me, that's one of the most admirable things and a quality you don't see in a lot of people. You have incredible qualities that will help you with future endeavors. Promise me you won't because I want you happy. I want you to succeed in doing what you love to do most. It's never too late to chase your dreams, Beca.

You brought me out of all my struggles and provided a light at the end of the tunnel I was lost in. I was just walking and walking, hitting walls and tripping over rocks trying to find my way out. At first, I thought that's where I wanted to be; what I wanted. But you showed me that it wasn't. It's not what I want. I want to be happy. I deserve to be happy, and you've shown me that countless times. From your words to your actions, I got your message, and I will always appreciate you. So as much as you say I've helped you, you've helped me.

I will always love you.

With love,

Chloe

As Beca read the letter, she had to wipe her eyes from the tears that wouldn't stop falling. Why would Chloe write this? Why would she tell Beca to stay away? One thing was for sure. Beca would be damned if she listened to what Chloe asked of her. She would promise not to let anyone push her around, and she would promise to always chase her dreams and find happiness, but what she wasn't going to promise was her staying away. She didn't want to stay away, and she couldn't. And with the small amount of time she's known the redhead, she knew her. She really knew Chloe, and although she was nowhere near knowing everything about the redhead- she wished for a lifetime for that, she knew so much already.

She knew Chloe, and this wasn't her. It was her beautiful manuscript, yes, but these weren't her words. She would never come to a conclusion like this. Not with the way their relationship was headed. Beca refused to believe this was truly what Chloe wanted.