That Thing Called Love (Cambridge Academy Series 1)

Chapter 30: Space

Chapter 30:

Space

Mitchie's.

Hindi ko makakalimutan ang buong hapon na sinamahan ako ni Justin at hindi iniwan kahit wala akong ginawa kung hindi ang umiyak. He became so patient to comfort me.

Nandoon pa rin ang sakit pero dahil patuloy niya akong inaalo, kahit papaano, hindi ko naramdaman kung gaano kabigat iyon. It feels like I have him to share my burden with so it became light to carry.

“Thank you, Justin. Really,” madamdamin kong banggit nang tumigil ang kotse niya sa tapat ng bahay.

“I’m always here, Mitch. Anytime. Just call me.”

And it’s ironic that I didn’t even call him earlier yet he came.

“Ano nga pala ang ginagawa mo kanina sa garden?” tanong ko dahil kuryoso rin sa bagay na iyon.

Lumipad ang kamay niya sa ilalim ng batok at hinimas ito habang nakayuko, hindi masalubong ang tingin ko.

“I-I was... about to wait for you at the garden.”

My eyebrows creased together, but there was a smile of delight in my face. “Wait for me? You didn’t tell me na magkikita tayo,” I chuckled.

“I was about to and then I saw you running and crying.”

Nawala ang ngiti sa labi ko at naalala na naman ang nangyari kanina. Hinawakan ni Justin ng marahan ang likod ng kamay ko kaya nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya.

“It’s okay to cry and feel hurt.”

“But it’s tiring,” I answered.

“Then, take a rest and cry again tomorrow.”

Hindi ko napigilan ang kumawalang halakhak sa bibig ko.

“It’s funny...” I blurted out.

“What is?” Nahawa na siya sa halakhak ko.

“You, telling me to cry it out. If it would be anyone, they’d comfort me and tell me not to cry anymore.”

“Well, I’m not that anyone.”

“Yeah, and I’m grateful that you’re not.”

Natahimik kami ng ilang sandali bago siya nagsalita muli.

“Cry it out until it feels light to carry. Keeping it all inside just makes it heavy.”

Hinayaan ko ang katahimikan sa pagitan namin habang tumatango sa sinabi niya. It’s amazing how his words can instantly make me feel slightly better.

Nandito na ako ngayon sa kwarto, nakatayo sa harap ng study desk ko habang pinagmamasdan ang polaroid pictures namin ni Kylie na nakadikit sa cork board. We look happy here.

If this is a normal day, I’d probably look at these photos and smile, but today is different. Parang tinutusok ang puso ko sa mga litrato kung saan masaya kaming dalawa. Our cheeky smiles were visible and we don’t even care how we look like with our goofy faces just to make hilarious looks.

I laughed the pain away para maiba naman pero tumatakas pa rin ang mga luha sa sulok ng aking mata.

Kylie is not just my best friend. I found my soulmate in her and losing her just means losing a part of me.

Hindi ko alam kung magkaka-ayos pa kami o kung madadala pa ito sa matinong usapan pero kung ako ang tatanongin, mas maganda kung hindi muna.

From what I can see, we are not both in our right states to fix our broken friendship if we are both broken too. We must heal and fix ourselves first before sorting our issues nang sa ganoon ay hindi na muling mangyari ang ganitong pangyayari.