Untouched Love

16

He giggled and looked down at my nose. "You know you do that a lot?"

"Do I actually? I mean...I guess I was aware of it but don't notice when I do it."

"Hey, it's not a bad thing, I think its actually adorable. You remind me of Thumper when you do that." He laughed and help up my chin with his finger. "My little Thumper."

I burrowed my face into the palm of his hand, trying to hide my flushed face.

"Come on. Let's head back home and get cozy in bed, all snuggled up under the blankets." He said.

As we drove home I rolled down the window and let the wind dance through my hair like I was in a movie. He looked over at me and stared as the street lights lit up my face with the warm glow.

I looked back and giggled, leaning over kissing him on the cheek. I didn't think it was possible for someone to look at another this much. It's nothing I've experienced before and he made me feel so alive, like something so strong had sparked inside us both.

We got home and rushed in to jump under the blankets to get each other warm.

I saw he got a message from one of his friends, asking if he was able to hop on the game tonight. He looked at me and before a word escaped his mouth I told him I didn't mind at all.

"Thank you...I promise I'll only play for a few hours then I'm all yours again."

This gave me time to write about the night in my notes. Tonight was so...perfect. There's really no other word that describes it better, and honestly, I think tonight is the night I'm going to show him all that I've been writing. I was so nervous because what if he realizes I'm feeling these feelings too fast? Better to do it now than wait till it's too late. I wanted to make a little deal with him though...

"Hey you...may I interrupt your game for a sec?" I asked shyly.

"Hey ya, what's up??" He said as he took his headphones off, full attention on me.

Now I was really getting nervous.

"I'll make you a little deal. I will show you what I've been writing if you finally tell me what your "Nothing" meant that you keep saying."

He had the biggest smile on his face.

"You know what. Deal." He said before getting back to his game.

I wrote for 2 hours, changing things, adding, perfecting them. Then finally, I was done.

He was still playing and I didn't want to interrupt so I waited until he was done.

I could feel butterflies in the pit of my stomach just waiting. How's he going to react...is it a good idea? Will this drive him away?

Before I could get too tangled in my thoughts I saw he was getting off the game.

He jumped on the bed and attacked me with kisses.

"Alright missy, I believe you wanted to show me something??" He said with a devilish smirk, happy that he finally got to read these mystery notes.

I handed him the pad of paper to read and went to the washroom quickly. I needed to collect my thoughts and just...breath. I waited in there for at least 10 minutes, giving him just enough time to read it so I wouldn't have to anxiously walk around the room and watch him smile at my cringey writing.

I walked back into the room and saw the biggest smile on his face while he was reading.

"Oh great you're still reading it, I came back too early." I said with a shaky tone.

"No no, I actually was just reading it all over again."

Then silence filled the room.

He sat on the end of the bed, just staring at me in silence, smiling like an idiot, like I was supposed to be the first to speak.

"K so like, I know it probably wasn't written that well and maybe it was too much or maybe not enough in some areas and..." I started rambling because I was nervous and didn't even know where I was going with any of it. I was just filling the void. "And if that was like, way too much for how early on we are then I'm sorry I just couldn't keep all this in anymore and I really like you and ya..."

He grabbed me by the hands and pulled me close. If he hadn't shut me up I don't think I would've ever stopped talking.

"Well, I guess I owe you my end of the bargain now don't I." He said.

"I like you, a lot, and I know you already know that but I can't stop saying it. Um...will you go out with me?"

Oh my god.

This is what I have been waiting for and it's actually happening. This doesn't feel real.

"I know I keep saying that I didn't want to date right now but you made me rethink that completely." He said in a soft tone.