Untouched Love

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It wasn't until 4 pm that I heard my phone go off. I was sitting on the couch in the living room, watching tv as I impatiently waited. As soon as I heard the buzz of my phone, I shot up and grabbed it so fast that it almost shot off the the table.

"Nothing to be sorry about, I really do understand:)" He said.

"Really?? I was so worried all night that you were mad at me because you stopped replying at 7."

"I wouldn't be mad over that. I'm sorry I didn't say anything afterwards, I was tired and didn't know what else to say."

"No that's okay, I'm just glad you aren't mad."

I was so relieved. I felt all this weight on my shoulders lift off after reading that. We were good. We were okay.

I got scared that something was going to happen between us. I've never been more terrified to lose someone than I am with Andrew. What I did know is that I did need to hold back on the clinginess, as I did just spend 5 days with him...

February 18th

"Babe!" He sent me with excitement.

"Oh hello there:)"

"What're you up to?"

"Oh just sitting around, bored as hell."

"Haha aw poor babes. Same though! Just stuck here at work, it's so slow and I don't get off until 8..."

"Ah man, that's shitty! Well...did you maybe want to hang out later?"

I don't know if I said something wrong but he didn't reply for 5 hours...I know what you're thinking, he's at work, isn't he just busy? Well, the thing with his work is that because he works at a flight simulation place, he's busy for 2 hours max teaching people how to fly, then stays up at the front on his phone.

I know I was probably overthinking things but something felt off.

I tried distracting myself by writing things and listening to music. Then finally, by 8 pm I heard my phone go off.

"Hey, just got off, today was crazy busy!"

Ok it was busy...that's probably why he wasn't texting me...nothing to worry about, calm yourself down. Yet at the same time, he flew right past the question of us hanging out. Did he not want to? No stop that. Stop overthinking.

"Ah man, sounds like an eventful shift! What are you going to do with the rest of your night?" I tried hinting.

"Probably just relax at home and play games with some friends online:)" he said.

Ok...I guess that's why he didn't want to hangout, he made plans with his friends. I guess I did literally just hang out with him for 5 days sooo can't really complain much.

We texted off and on throughout the night, but he would only respond every 3 hours or so, which was very unlike him. It's hard not to stress over small things when this is out of their character.

After 5 hours of maybe 3 texts from us back and forth, he texted me again.

"Just got off my game!"

"Oh nice. Andrew you seem really busy, I can let you go if you like."

"No, please keep texting me until one of us falls asleep:)" He said.

Well that made me feel better hearing that from him.

So I kept texting him...

1:03 am "So what do you have planned for the rest of your night?"

1:47 am "I'm not up to much, just writing and watching tv!"

1:59 am "Hello...?"

"haha I can just imagine you draping over the bed with your phone on the floor as you watch Netflix." He replied. He mentioned that because everytime I watched tv at his house I always laid half on the bed, I honestly only did that to get attention from him, he'd always tickle me when I did that and I loved when he did that.

"Haha, no, I'm laying in my bed all cuddled up in my blankets. Um, do you think I could come over?" I replied.

"Would it be okay if you didn't? Don't get me wrong I absolutely love hanging out with you, but I just kind of wanted to relax and play my game because we have been hanging out quite a lot recently."

I guess I can't blame him...even though it hurt to hear, he is right. I pushed passed his boundary of personal space.