Untouched Love

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future holds for us, but I pray with every cell in my body that this story ends with his warm embrace holding me tight at the end of every night.

I will tell you with honest words right now that I have never in my life felt this way towards someone before. We had this untouched kind of love. The kind of love that had so much potential to grow...but the light that only I saw ahead of us, was left untouched.

He is my person. I always used to tell myself that if I ever got broken up with that I wouldn't blink twice. If I knew for a second that they didn't want me anymore, then I would happily leave. Until it happened...

There will never be the right letters to form a sentence that can explain the kind of hurt you feel when the person you love more than anyone and anything, tells you "I can't do this anymore." That shit breaks you. It breaks you into a million fucking pieces.

People tell me that I just love too fast, too easy, and that it was all rushed emotions because I didn't know him for long...but I don't care. I felt stronger for him than someone I was with for almost 3 years. It doesn't matter how long you know the person, It's the connection you build with them. It's that instant spark when your eyes first lock. It's that rush of adrenaline when your face is so close to theirs you could almost touch...wanting to kiss them but you're scared, because it seems so perfect.

It's that safe feeling you get when you're around them. That no matter what happens in this world, it will be okay, because you have them.

When I first met "Andrew", I didn't know it was possible to feel this kind of love for someone. I also didn't know it was possible to feel this kind of pain when they leave. It honestly makes me scared to fall back in love again.

To this day, I have no idea if we'll end up back together in the future... but I pray to God that we do...

Anytime my thoughts get to me, saying that we may never come back together, I keep thinking about that one night on February 24th. That night he told me that he would see us together again one day. I know it's probably not a good idea to rely on that, as no one knows what the future holds, but that is the only thing holding me together. That is the only thing giving me hope.

Maybe it's because it gave me the reassurance that he still cares about me. Or maybe it's because I knew that he still saw a future with us.

I don't believe that two people who came together with such passion were meant to fall apart for good. What we had was real. I just met my right person at the wrong time...and I have full faith that we will find each other again. I believe that when this storm passes that there will be sunshine at the end...and the sun rays will kiss my face with its warmth...and I will wonder why I ever thought fearful thoughts.

"I miss the days where the rain wasn't as heavy. So heavily falling across my chest, that I feel as though I am stuck in this storm." ~

"I miss our days...when everything felt okay. For we are like winter roses after fall, despite how cold it may be, we will grow." ~