Untouched Love

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I hope we were able to get a table. It was valentines and we didn't make any reservations. We walked in and it looked pretty busy.

"Hi! Table for two please?" He asked the hostess.

"Okay perfect, do you guys have a reservation with us tonight?"

"Uh, no we don't unfortunately."

"No worries, let me just check if we have some room for you guys."

Luckily she found one of the last booths for us on the bar side.

They even had a special valentines menu for tonight, consisting of a few specialty drinks and some appetizers. I had already been drinking, which makes me lose my appetite, but I knew for sure that I needed some more alcohol in me. Not that I needed alcohol to have a good time, but we had pre planned to get wasted tonight and go on drunk adventures.

For that reason, I just ordered an appetizer, the baked brie to be specific, and with that a peach Moscow mule. Andrew ordered the same drink as me as well as some carbonara pasta.

Let me tell you, those drinks did not last long, they were so delicious. For the next one I ordered one of the special valentines drinks and Andrew just got a lager. Don't understand how people can drink beer...it's the most disgusting drink I've ever tried.

We laughed talked throughout the night, sipping at our drinks as we both got slightly more intoxicated.

I wanted to order a third but I didn't realize it was already 11 o'clock, which is when they closed. We paid and walked back home, well, I attempted to walk as far as I could without needing his arm for assistance with balancing.

15 minutes later we got back home and headed downstairs. As soon as he laid down he was asleep instantly. I looked at him and giggled, surprised that the person with less alcohol in them couldn't stay awake for more than a second after being in bed.

I cuddled up beside him fell asleep holding him tight.

February 15th

I had such an amazing last few days with Andrew, I wish I didn't have to leave, but alas, I will be heading home later this evening.

"Are you just going to game for a bit today?" I asked him.

"If that's alright with you?"

"Oh of course, I got to have you these past couple days, have fun with your friends baby. Can I use your ipad to draw something to keep me busy?"

He smiled and kissed my forehead. "Yes yes of course babe go for it, I can't wait to see what you draw for me." He said before putting on his headphones.

I grabbed his ipad and looked for his browser to try and find a reference photo for whatever I was going to draw. When I opened it there was already a tab open...

It was porn.

Now here's the thing about porn. Most guys watch it. Some girlfriends/wives are totally okay with their guys watching it because it doesn't bother them, and that's totally fine. Then there's the other group of girls that are very much against it...ya, I'm in that group.

Now, I'll tell you why I'm upset right now. It would be one thing if I found this by surprise and didn't know how to react because we didn't have the "talk" about boundaries and my view on porn. I was upset, because a few weeks ago we did have that talk.

He specifically asked me my view on it and I said I didn't like it. He then proceeded to say "Well thank you for letting me know that, I don't want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable." And I believed him. That following week I brought it up again because I told him it was a problem with my ex and I really wanted to know that it wasn't going to happen, and he said "Don't worry baby, I honestly haven't even felt a need to look at that stuff, you're enough for me." And I believed him again.

So I'm not upset that I found it. I'm upset that he lied and went behind my back. Maybe I shouldn't jump to conclusions yet, maybe this was from before we had that talk. I didn't want to get upset with him for no reason, so that meant I had to have a long talk about it...

"Hey Andrew. Can we talk for a sec." I tried acting calm but I was hurting.

"Ya? What's up." He answered shyly, I could tell he knew something was up.

"So I kind of stumbled across something and I just wanted to know if it was recent or not. I found your porn opened when I went on your browser. I didn't want to blow anything out of proportion or assume that you still watch it because I know I made it very clear what my view on it was and that you respected that. I just wanted to know."

As soon as I saw the look in his eyes and the silence that filled the room, that was enough of an answer in itself.

"It was recent...it was from the day before you came here actually."

What the actual fuck.

I didn't even know how to react.