Past, Present and Future

Should I Ask Him?

"Another night alone, Paul?" I asked as he knocks on my door crying. "Let me guess, the stupid drug party. You asked Peter but he went with Ace. Right?"

"Yes. " he sighed as I let him in. "Gene, I'm never going to find someone. "I mean, peter is married and still sees Ace. Ace has a girlfriend and Peter. You and I don't have anyone. "

"I date though. Paul, you should try to ask someone out."

"Gene, please. I'm deformed. No one wants me." 

"I don't know about that. There's more than a few girls that watch you during concerts."

I get Paul comfortable, again. We share popcorn and watch a stupid movie long into the night. I do have two tickets to an upcoming concert so should I ask Paul to go?

"Hey I have two tickets to see The Stones next weekend. want to go?" I ask casually.

"The Stones!?" "Yes, of course!" he squeals happily. "I love you Gene!" He places a wet kiss on my cheek and suddenly turns bright red and stares at the floor. "I'm sorry." "I don't love you like that, I think. Oh boy! I really should go."

Before I can react, he's gone. Is this possibly a crush? I mean I'm not wrong, Paul is watched while he prances around on stage----and not just by females. I'm guilty of it too.

Not that I think about Paul like that.......Another story for another day.