Past, Present and Future

Please Let Me In

Ever since I saw Eric's message, I've been worried about Tommy. I can't get him to answer his phone or his door. Damn! I don't have the  spare key either. The only way I can get in is to crawl through the air vent and I'm doing that. 

Hopefully Eric has the key or Tommy will finally let me in. "Tom, please open up. I really want to talk to you." Several minutes pass before I hear the lock click. The door doesn't open but at least it's unlocked. "May I come in, baby?"

"I guess." comes the quiet reply.

I slowly open the door and enter. Tommy blinks from the sudden light. I catch a glimpse of him and he looks awful. "Baby, how long has it been since you've gotten off the couch?" "When did you eat last?"

"I-I-I don't know. Since I left rehearsal I think." he says quietly. "I am hungry."

"Alright. I'm going to cook you dinner while you go shower and change." "Take your time, okay?"

After I get Tommy into the bathroom and hear the water running, I start dinner. Knowing he hasn't eaten in at least 36 hours, I keep it light.

About 30 minutes later, Tommy joins me in the kitchen and unexpectedly wraps his arms around me. "You don't have to do this for me."

"Yes, I do. I love you so much. I want to take care of you." I turn around and kiss him. "Now, go sit and I'll bring you dinner."

I made tomato soup and salad along with a vegetable pasta and wine. Filling a plate, I join him and we talk while we eat.  "Tom, would you be willing to move in with me?" I ask. 

"What? Really?" "Why?"

Patiently I explain the reason I asked him. "I love you first of all and I want to take care of you. Secondly, I love you and I want to take care of you." "I'm not going to push you into anything you're not comfortable with." "Just think about it."

I washed the dishes while Tommy cleaned up a bit. Afterwards we sat on the couch and talked for a long time. He finally gave me his answer when he walked into his room and started packing. Getting the hint, I got up and helped. We left the dishes and things there, just taking his clothes and guitars. I did take the plants though.

This is the first step in us being officially together. I let him have the spare bedroom which is down the hall from mine and has its own private bathroom.