Past, Present and Future

How Do I Make It Better?

Paul here. My poor Tommy is very upset and I have no idea how to comfort him. I've tried just holding him, talking to him, offering him wine and chocolate, everything. What do I do? How do I make it better?

Finally he stops crying and crawls into my lap. His head goes onto my shoulder and I can feel him shaking. 

"Tom, sh. Talk to me, please." "Whatever happened is over and done." "Sh, sh, come on." "Look at me."

He finally looks up at me with his hazel brown eyes. They're rimmed with red from the hours of crying he's done. When he goes to speak his voice is ragged and hoarse. "Paul, am I so awful to have people hate me?" "I know I'm a replacement but does that make me awful?" He starts crying again. I just sit next to him and rub his back.

When he falls asleep, I slide off the bed and walk to the other side of the room. Picking up my phone, I text Gene to tell him I finally found out why Tommy was upset. I can hear Eric cussing in the background. 

"Calm down kitty. " calls Gene. "Tom's asleep so don't go off on a  rampage. Fans can be assholes."

I talk to Gene a bit longer before hanging up. Going back over to the bed, I take the covers and tuck them around Tommy before sitting next to him on the bed. I'm watching t.v. when Tommy wakes up later. He reaches for my hand and goes back to sleep.

I fall asleep beside him later. When I wake up around eleven, he's curled up around me so I turn over and hug him tightly.