Yesterday was my bday and i was apparently not much well but was able to click this pic which im proud of 😤
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I ran as fast as possible dodging around people who may be thinking how much of a lunatic I was but I didn't have the time to care about them. I reached in time, butting my foot between the door and the room preventing it from closing before entering the room.
"Julian."
My voice came out strained but he kept staring out of the floor to roof window, his back facing me.
"Julian."
Still no response.
"Julian, I swear I wanted to tell but-"
"But what Lilly? You thought you don't matter at all and it won't make a difference if you..." I practically heard him swallow the word he was about to say.
"It's not that Ju-"
"Then why the fuck you didn't tell me Lilly?" He screamed and finally turned around allowing me to see the mess of his face.
I flinched, "Please-"
"Do you know how it fucking feels like when the love of your life tells you that she's having something that risks her life? Do you know how it feels like when you realize the amount of time you've lost when you could've stopped being a hussy and already confessed your feelings? Do you know how it feels like when you start doubting everything?! No, you fucking don't!"
"STOP FUCKING YELLING AT ME!" I screamed at top of my lungs and instantly broke into sobs falling on my knees.
"Tu me fais peur." My voice came out as sharp as knives cutting a string.
You're scaring me.
I wept, wept and wept.
"Fuck," Julian silently muttered and I noticed how painfully he shut his eyes before wiping away his face with the back of his hand. He made his way towards me in short strides as though afraid I'd break even by a single touch.
He knelt before me just the way I did before Hannah and I shivered feeling some kind of deja vu.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," He chanted again and again and kissed every part of my face. My cheeks. My forehead. My eyelids. My nose. My chin.
Except my lips.
"I'm sorry."
Our foreheads were pressed together, our breaths mingling together, our lips not having even a hair's breadth of space in between.
"I don't want to die Julian. I don't want to die."
The desperation in my voice broke me and those damn tears made another appearance.
"Shh, shh, we'll talk about this tomorrow. Rest right now. Promise." He hid my face in the crook of his neck once he realised, I was nowhere near to stop my tears.
I hiccupped and raised my pinkie finger without looking at Julian.
"Promise?"
He brought his own pinkie not before snorting a bit and hooked it with mine.
"Promise."
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its short ik but im exhausted affffff school's been fun but i dont have time 🥺😔
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Lilly & Julian
Storie d'amoreLILLY WEST is a twenty-eight-year-old independent woman working at an advertising company in Paris, France since past four years. Her life usually surrounds around her aunt (who's her rock), her bestie (who's getting married!), her bestie's fiancé (...
