Dear whatever is a peculiar head isn't it?
Giving off an idea that maybe the thing I'm dedicating it to, isn't of importance
But I mean it differently
If you care to listen and understand
I know you do
Do you?
Ofc you don't
Cause you're something that is happening like a gust of wind with dust, zooming past me, making it difficult to see and be there for someone I love
You're a situation and you're deliberately trying to make me not understand what happened or where I went wrong for the other person
2024 began so wonderfully
But apparently the beginning too has gone, deleted from the drive of memories, accidentally maybe?
Anyways
Going through ups and down was supposed to make bond stronger. The bond didn't break but I don't know what happened. I don't know what was happening
I mean I agree, on some pity issues it turned a big. The first one wasn't pity
But the later, the hp with study, the periods with health.
Of course
For me it wasn't
It wasn't pity at all
Do I know my faults?
'Whatever' ? Why did you rip me away from the memories of the event immediately as they happen. Well atleast you couldn't rip me away from the feelings of it.
All I know now is
I'm pathetic and unworthy
They didn't make me feel that way. No. They made me feel beautiful and special and .....wanted. No one in this entire world had made me feel that way for so long. For months...
I made me feel that way
At the beginning, I couldn't give them space, I made them feel that they're not allowed to feel their emotions. I realised it later how I'm doing it but then I tried not to. I just couldn't see them hurt is all.....but that made me a bitch to do that. I saw the improvement....or was it? Why couldn't I keep my mouth shut....why did I had to imply "Grow up" to them....The safest Heaven on alien planet for me.
I left even though I knew that they don't like me leaving in between, especially when they're a child. I hurt the child more than I tried not to. And yet they tried to show...yet they tried to be
I'm not deserving
I don't deserve anything that has happened for those beautiful months of creation of new bond and new perspective.
I talked about treating them right
I made them feel I didn't treat them right....idk how but they said it so yeah it's true.....yeh hurtful words they say once that i didn't deserve they said it again but this time, it wasn't like i didn't deserve it , i deserved it....but they refuse to say it...
Idk why I say "up to you" when we both get hurt by those. I said I won't except when I feel like I'm upsetting him, so to give him space w
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Candid Heartstrings
PoetryThe candid beats of a heart The unfiltered voice inside That finally sets it's free Let me present a mere display of words Behind which, hides memories, anguish, fears, dreams and tears Let's have a view of The poetries I wrote for myself The quot...
