A Testament to When I Loved You

XXX. A Testament to When I Loved You

April 14, 2022

Hey, did you know,

I used to dream of us?

We'd be together:

Under a vast blue sky and

A warm sun wrapping around us.

You'd look at me and smile,

And we'd speak so freely

Context and happy and

I didn't need anything other than that.

Hey, did you know,

I think I love you,

I wasn't sure of it before because

Fear gripped my heart

And the time wasn't right

Because I didn't know myself

And I couldn't be the one

To make you smile because

I could not muster the courage

To smile for myself

But hey, did you know,

I can finally admit it now

I really did love you and

That fact will never change but

Our hearts will go on and

I hope you understand that

The memories we shared were

All real and that I never resented you

I'll never resent you

Hey, did you know,

They're telling me to let go and

I think I'm ready to although

When I think of my first love it's

No longer the boy who broke his promise

No longer the girl who left without a word

Instead, it's you

Because hey, did you know,

You taught me I could be loved

And that I can be cherished

And that I should never apologize for being me

And I should keep following and striving

Towards my small little dreams

And that I should believe in myself wholly and surely,

Yet also rely on my friends and family

When I find myself stuck in the deep end,

For these and for so many other things

Like our adventures in the garden and

Our meetings with The Cow and

Our frustrations getting lost and

The moments when you truly understood me—

For these and for so much more,

Forever, really, thank you.