Dempeo: The right kind of wrong

You make it hard to be faithful Pt.2

*december 2009*
Ellen woke up in her bed and looked over to see that Chris had already gone up to take care of Stella. She had the best night sleep in months and she knew it was due to all of the orgasms she had yesterday but as her mind started to wake up she couldn't help but feel incredibly guilty that it was Patrick that had given them to her. As much as she love Chris and their new family, Patrick had given her something that Chris just couldn't. Ellen couldn't really decide what was worse, the fact that another man had given her the best sex of her life or the fact that Patrick was not just another man. It was about lust yesterday and she knew that, but it had also been about so much more. She loved Patty, maybe a little too much and she would have never let another man do the things he did to her. They had been so good at keeping their friendship platonic for months now and they ruined it. And Ellen now knew that she could have him like that if she wanted to, which was a dangerous thing for her to know. She did not know if she could keep herself from touching him again after last night. She knew had to get to work so she could talk to him because she needed to know where Patricks head was at. All she knew was that she couldn't leave her family but at the same time she couldn't lose Patty.
For now thought, Ellen put on her acting face so she could head downstairs to greet her husband. Even if her insides were screaming with guilt she could not let Chris notice that she was any different.

Patrick came into work an hour earlier then he used to today. He had texted Ellie to do the same because he had to talk to her. Yesterday was fresh on his mind and if the pictures in his head werent enough to keep it fresh, his sore dick reminded him with every step he took. Jillian had questioned his behaviour this morning but he could not bring himself to discuss things with her so he had just brushed her off. Sure he felt guilty, of course he did he had cheated 'again' after all. However the feeling he had with Ellen yesterday had only increased what he already knew, he loved Ellen more than he'd ever loved anyone and that scared him. She had such control over him and if she wanted to fuck him he would never say no, no matter how wrong it was and if she just wanted to snuggle and kiss him he would comply to that aswell.
Patrick looked up and saw Ellens car arrive at the parking lot and as soon as she stepped out his mind was blown yet again. He did not understand how someone could wear sweats and look like they rolled right out of bed and still look so incredibly beautiful. As his thoughts wandered he was soon interrupted "Good morning Patty." Ellen told him in the sweetest voice and he was happy to see that she, at the very least, was not avoiding him after last night. "Good morning Ellie." He told her and made his way to plant a sweet peck on her cheek. Ellen smiled at the action and he felt his heart start to beat a bit faster. "So... we should probably talk huh?" She said and Patrick couldn't help but to let out a small laugh at how innocent she sounded. "We probably should." He said and gestured for them to walk towards his trailer because it happened to be closer to where they were standing. Ellen followed him in silence, they both knew they would have to get serious soon and it was just nice to enjoy a few seconds of peace.

As soon as Ellen closed the door behind her she could see that Patrick was ready to start and she let him. "So first thing's first. Yesterday was freaking incredible and don't you for a second say that it wasn't." Ellen laughed out load to this, she had been a master of minimizing the things they had done in the past that she could see that he wanted to make sure she didn't pull that bullshit again. "I know it was Patty. My body can still feel it ya know." And with this she got a wicked smile from Patty and she could tell that he was proud of himself. "With that said we've put ourself in a bit of a mess huh?" He told her and her smile faded a bit because she knew he was right. "Look i'm just going to blurt this out okay?" Patrick waited for her to accept and she gave him an supportive nod. "I love you Ellen, you already know that. And I can't lose you ever but I don't know if I can knowingly cheat on Jill everyday. And i also know you can't leave your family, I get that. So i honestly don't know what to do this time." As he was talking Ellen could see how hard this was on him, he was a good man and he didn't want to be this person. "Patty, I don't want that either. I know we are in a shitty situation and I feel like i have no answers for you." Ellen looked at him and wanted to cry, not just for her own pain but because of the fact that Patty was in pain. She walked up close to him and just gave him a hug and as soon as she did she felt him pull her as close as he could. It was what they both needed right now. And in that hug Ellen realised what needed to be said.
"How about this? We try everyday to just be friends, hang out and just be us. But if something happens we don't fight, we don't disgard it as a mistake. We just realise it was one of those days where we can't resist and then we move on the next day." Ellen knew this was the most horrible idea ever but it was also the only solution she could see actually work. Because as much as she hated to admit it, she knew that she could not stay away from him forever. "You know what Ellie, I think that sounds like a good idea." Patrick said and looked at her with a loving gaze. "Just one more thing before we re-start us just being friends again." He said and she just asked "What?" with a curious voice. At that Patrick leaned in and gave her a kiss, not a passionate one like the kisses they shared last night but a sweet and loving kiss. "That." He told her as he broke the kiss and they both just smiled at each other.