Lies

Chapter 30

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Felix

"So will I ever get to see her again?" My mother chimes in, while grabbing for the bowl of popcorn on the bed.

We are currently in her room watching a home movie. It's one with her older sister Emilie. We don't speak much about her other than she was a great woman, who had a big heart. My mother likes to reminisce about her through these recordings of them.

Sometimes, I believe the reason she has me here, is so that she won't cry. She's always been like that. Keeping up a front and maybe that's where I get the majority of my stubbornness from.

She's seated up against her head board and I move away in order to face her. Her platinum hair is braided down to her side, her skin clear with no signs of blemishes, but her face is ghost white. She's been taking medicine, however her frail body looks more of bone now.

I know she doesn't want to talk about it. She doesn't want me to think about how this is unfair. That's who she is. She reminds me each moment that this is life. That she was able to see me grow and that she will watch me grow even after she's gone. I wish I could have that strength, but slowly I'm being torn inside.

"See who?" My eyes look to the film playing and I tilt my head towards it. She must notice that I meant in the movie, but I knew who she was asking for.

"No silly, Kagami. It's once in a blue moon that my son brings home a girl. I did not appreciate the time you brought her nor the state she was in. Or how you handled the situation, but is she not the girl you've been complaining to me about for the past month or so?" There's a small smile stretched across her lips. Almost amused.

"I have not complained about her that much." I deny. Maybe a handful of times.

"Oh my sweet child, you don't know do you?" She laughs softly and the sound causes my heart to ache. I won't hear this one day.

"Can we not talk about her. I just, I just want to be here with you." I say, pulling the bowl of popcorn towards me.

"Felix, you have so much love to give. Why close it off? What are you afraid of?" Her eyes are piercing mine.

"Seriously, mum I don't want to talk about this." My fingers drum onto the bowl.

Silence. I can tell the tension had changed her emotion. My eyes stayed on the bowl in fear of what I'd see.

"I am dying, Felix. I won't get to talk to you about girls again. So do not make me ask again. What are you afraid of?" The word is like a whip. Striking me so hard that I quiver. It's hard for me. Because I'm not sure when I'll wake to her not being here. So I decided to cave.

"I'm not afraid. I just said something stupid and I don't really know how to take it back."

It was a mistake.

That whole sentence was a mistake. That whole moment when I said it was a mistake, but that kiss. That kiss was never a regret. It was never something I'd want to take back. Or that I hoped she'd never want to take it back.