Lies

Chapter 41

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This chapter involves abuse. Please, if you don't feel comfortable reading don't continue.

Otherwise, reader read to your discretion. Thank you for coming this far.

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Kagami

The moment I looked at my phone, I felt butterflies in my stomach. Felix texted me good morning birthday girl. I may have smiled the widest I've ever smiled. It was to the point where it was uncomfortable. I don't recall the last time I did.

I closed my eyes and calmed my emotions down. I'm not going to act like the rest of them. This doesn't mean he's different. It just means he's open to the idea of me. I'll need to get a clearer picture of things soon.

Logically texting him back would mean two things: I'm eager and I'm impatient.

Neither of those look good on me.

It's been less than twenty four hours since my conversation with Felix. It's been a few weeks since our first kiss and only a few hours since our last.

It's confusing to think that Felix wanted me all along. It's strange to think that he said he wasn't capable of being what I needed. He still believes that, even though he craved me. Even though he was yearning for me like I was for him.

It made sense after he told me his plan. He would go to Mila's and retrieve the USB. He would destroy it and make sure there weren't any other copies left. Which meant I had to text Lexi to get rid of hers.

After secrets were exchanged, he kissed me once more. It was short and sweet. However, in someway it felt as if he'd leave. Not leave and drive away, but leave and pretend this night never happened.

There's something I need to do first. So stay out of the way until then, alright?

He didn't ask for my help. He didn't want it even if I offered. He told me to stay in tonight, but I said I'd do things my way. Yes, I hate when people tell me what to do, but I hated it more that Logan was the cause of all problems and he was smiling this whole time.

It' my birthday, so in result to me being a year older I'm going on an outing with Logan himself.

He had requested this night for me and as the clock shown me that he would be here soon, I tried to foster my best smile. It's taking quite the effort. Because the moment I look into those eyes all I want to do is pry them out.

Just last month he confessed to me. Just last month he's shown his kindness. During this whole time I had a small inkling that he had a darkness in him. Just yesterday was my instinct confirmed. Logan had planned a dinner and he said the after was a surprise. I wasn't sure what could be instore for me, but mainly I wished that he would bail.

My stomach felt uneasy about going out with him, but part of me knew I had to get proof about his crime. He wasn't so innocent and I knew this for a fact. He was very much the villian pretending to be hero.

Felix explained that Logan wasn't all charming. He explained how Logan is dangerous. But mostly he explained my deepest concerns that had to do with Alyssa. I felt so angry. So pathetic. So useless, because she couldn't bring herself to tell me. Was it because she was afraid? Did she feel that I wasn't trust worthy?

I wanted to wring his neck. I wanted to gouge his eyes out. I wanted to vomit. I wanted Alyssa to know that I was someone she could confide in. But mostly I wanted to scream. Everyone knew this secret.

Everyone but me.

My phone buzzes snapping me back into reality. Logan will be here any minute and I still need to put my shoes and coat on. It's November after all. Which means the rain will come to wash away any sins I will create tonight.