Lies

Chapter 36

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Kagami

My birthday wasn't anything special to celebrate. It was just a yearly reminder to my mother that the only man she ever loved left her. It was a yearly reminder that my father took one look and decided to subtract himself from the equation. It was pathetic and cowardly of him. Yet, every year like clockwork we're reminded of this notion. 

My mother ended up leaving the week of my birthday. So this morning, when I woke up to hear nothing, it no longer surprised me. As always my morning routine started with breakfast, checking my schedule for the day and walking out the front doors to see Tatsu waiting for me.

However, this morning was discombobulating for me. After seeing Alyssa, there's been something nagging at me. It's unsettling and I'm not sure what to make of it. When she tried to tell me what happened to her, she said it had to do with Logan.

Logan.

Lately, he's been patient with me. He hasn't tried to kiss me. He hasn't tried to force anything onto me. So the whole concept of him hurting her is what makes me have whiplash. Alyssa was clearly distraught, but I don't believe she would lie.

At least not about that.

It's too much for me in the morning. It's too exhausting and I'm already dreading this whole week. Thankfully, I was able to buy a few more manga to read. It's all the fictional romance I need to survive this life.

A few years back I read Noragami by Adachitoka. It had romance, pain, adventure, change and a different take on Gods.

I had succumbed to reading it all. Every drawing had precision, every word gave meaning, every emotion sent me spiraling. Each fight scene had me at the edge of my seat. Yukine had become my favorite character during that time.

I could relate to him in a way. I could understand what it felt like being alone. What it felt like to wonder what if you had parents or for me what caring parents would be like. Perhaps, he just wanted a small taste and having that relationship with Yato was all he could get. He was afraid to lose something so foreign, but it felt so safe.

While I on the other hand feel indifferent about my mother's trip away from home.

For the longest time I used to think that it was me. That I had reminded her of him somehow, but I grew out of that. It was just that damn date. November eighth. It's a rude reminder, but like scars it won't disappear. It'll just become a part of you.

The week she first left filled me with insecurities. Does she not love me? Does she hate me? Do I remind her of him? Each question asked why she left. Each question asking why I always celebrated alone. I stopped asking when I never got answers.

Now it just feels numb.

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I've arrived at the school to see Felix and Mila arguing in front. She looks almost frantic. Her hair is untamed, her uniform doesn't look neatly pressed and she isn't wearing her signature heels. Which always made her look like a harlot. She looks both ways and pulls him into the school.