Lies

Chapter 47

Kagami

"Get away from me!"  The person in front of me causes everything in my body to tremble.

"Put it down before you hurt yourself." He says. It's almost cocky.

It's dark. It's cold. I'm alone with this person. I'm alone and scared. My whole body feels small. I feel as if the power I once had was sucked out of me.

The room becomes narrow. The noise becomes disturbingly silent. All I hear is the man in front of me. His teeth show and he smiles. It's not genuine. I know for a fact it can't be.

My body is no longer my own and I'm watching above. Watching as I run to find something -anything to throw. I feel and hear a crack as I see my body fall over. He grabs me.

I'm shouting to fight. I'm asking myself to remain calm and figure out a better solution. I'm yelling to bide my time.

Because for some reason I had hope. I had hope that it wasn't going to be like this for long. It wasn't going to be scary. It wasn't going to be painful.

It's not until I see the man crawl on top of me that I begin to scream. Scream as loud as I can, but nothing comes out. Absolutely no sound.

His hands wrap around my throat and I feel my eye bulge out as I try my best to breathe. I'm slowly falling back down to my body and darkness falls.

***

"I wanted to surprise you for your birthday." The voice says.

It's sweet that they want to do this. It's nice because no one ever tries to do anything for my birthday. My mother leaves and I don't have friends to celebrate with.

I see a pair of green eyes that stare at me with concern. I wonder why? Is there something wrong?

I try to ask, but my words can't escape. It's so dark. I can't seem to move. I feel very groggy at the moment.

They hold my hands down. As if they are trying to comfort me. No, it's tighter.

Are they worried?

The feeling is warm and I kind of miss feeling the warmth. As if the sun was kissing me as I lay against the sand.

The beach sounds like a nice place to be at.

Maybe I should plan a trip.

Everything is ripped away as I hear a loud banging against a door.

As if my mind couldn't keep up I see small spurts of words and images. Nothing more.

***

Someone is holding me. They smell good. I feel warm again. I feel happy. Safe even. My head still feels weird.

The world around me is quiet. I want to sleep forever. I feel like I could sleep forever. Maybe I can. I should try.

I don't think I'll be missed. I just want to sleep. It's not like I'd go anywhere.

****

I'm watching myself at five play fence with my father when we were happy. When all was right in the world. When all I thought of was how to win against him.

I knew he was letting me win, but I thought I could learn how to win in order to make him proud. I was able to strike him once and the pride in his eyes was all I needed.

My mother was smiling and my father had kissed her forehead. They looked perfect. They seemed happy.

I sat down watching them. They would banter, argue and laugh. They would love, cry and test. They would poke, pry and trust. They would do all of this and more for one another.