Childhood Series 2: Breaking You (COMPLETED)

Chapter 24

"Halika na, besh! Lasing ka na at saka kanina pa tumatawag si Tito sa phone mo."

Pilit akong pinapatayo ni Ren mula sa pagkakadukdok ko sa lamesa but instead of getting up I took the bottle of beer and pour my glass again. Sa totoo Lang ay Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako naglalasing ngayon. Ang Plano ko sana ay maging tipsy Lang, just a little drink kasama si Serene but I end up getting drunk. Bwesit kasi na Luke 'yon! Napakalawak ng mundo doon pa makikipagtawanan sa lugar kung nasaan ako. Parang pinapamukha talaga niya sa akin na tama lang ang desisyon ko na iwan siya kasi he looks really happy kanina noong makita ko sila. Sana lang kapag dumating yong araw na makilala niya ang anak namin ay hindi niya iparamdam dito na mas mahal niya ang anak niya sa asawa niya. I know hindi naman mapipigilan na magkita sila. Darating ang araw at magkukrus talaga ang landas nilang mag-ama.

"Besh, do you think I made the right choice when I left Luke and hid our daughter to him?" Tanong ko sa kanya ng sa wakas ay mahila na niya ako palabas ng bar. She is now driving my car while here I am being so emotional ass. Ewan ko ba, epekto siguro 'to ng alak na nainom ko.

She glance at me before focusing again on driving. "I can't say that you made the right choice or the wrong one. Hindi naman kasi natin basta basta malalaman kung tama ba yong naging desisyon natin. It's just a matter of the reason on why you made those decisions. Kung sa tingin mo ay iyon ang tamang gawin nong mga panahon na iyon, then you've done the right thing. There's no wrong decision if you are brave enough to face the consequences of your choice. Mali man iyon o tama, ang mahalaga ay alam mong pangatawanan at harapin ang kahihinatnan nito."

Yeah right. I made those decisions dahil iyon ang para sa akin at tama. Dahil sa ayaw kung makasira pa ng pamilya. Kahit na mahal na mahal ko siya, I chose to break his heart once again in order for his child to have a complete and happy family. I know how hard it is to only have one parent beside you.

"We're here, besh. Always remember that whatever your decision is, I am always with you. Alam ko kung gaano kabuti ang puso mo kaya sana ay gumawa ka ng desisyon na hindi lang magpapasaya sa anak mo kundi pati sa sarili mo. You deserve to be happy in this world, besh. Make yourself happy."

Ilang minuto na ang nakalipas mula ng maihatid ako ni Serene pero tila nakatatak pa rin sa utak ko ang mga sinabi niya. Aminado naman ako na marami akong what ifs pero handa akong harapin kung ano man ang kahihinatnan ng naging desisyon ko. I know Luke might be mad at me for hiding our daughter but I'm willing to face his wrath if that time comes.

"Are you okay princess? May problema ka ba?" Daddy asked when I get down to drink some water. Nadatnan ko siyang kabababa rin.

"I'm okay, dad. Medyo napasobra lang po ng ininom namin ni Ren."

I heard him sighed before he held my hand and gently look at me.

"You can open up to me, princess. Whatever your problem is, handa akong makinig at gabayan ka. I failed to be a father with you before, sana hayaan mo akong magpaka-ama naman sayo ngayon."

I feel myself tearing up as I hugged my father so tight. Alam ko at nakikita ko naman na nag-eefort si daddy sa amin para makabawi.

"Thanks, dad. I promise, if I can't take it anymore, I will immediately knock on your door." He smiled and patted my head.

"It's so overwhelming seeing you and me with this kind of moment. Sana noon pa lang ay natauhan na ako. I'm really sorry for being a bad father to you way back then."

"It's okay, dad. Tapos na po 'yon. Let's just leave it behind and start a new memories together."

We stayed there for almost ten minutes reminiscing our memories with Mom. It's so refreshing to know that at the end of the day, you have someone you can lean on to.