Just a Soldier

Chapter 3 - Naked butt

Y/n's POV:

We didn't end up getting to sleep until 3am last night, but my God was it worth it. We certainly made up for lost time. It was some of the best sex I've ever had, it was like Scarlett was determined to make every touch amazing. I lost count of how many rounds we had, but what I did know was my legs were sore and I'm certain that I have bruises all over my body.

The sun woke me up at 9am this morning and I spent ages just looking at my beautiful girlfriend who was happily sleeping. Small snores emanating from her mouth. I was gently running my hands through her hair and thinking of how I only saw my future with this woman. I wanted to wake up every morning with her lying next to me in bed for the rest of my life. For me she is it and I hope I am for her too.

I'm lost in thought, staring at the ceiling, my hand mindlessly running through Scarlett's hair. I can start to feel a few doubts forming in my mind. I have no idea where they are coming from, but suddenly I can't stop overthinking everything. What if she doesn't see her future with me? We live in different worlds. I'll eventually have to go on another deployment, would she wait? Does she see herself becoming Ava's mum? I'm abruptly pulled out of my trance by a pair of lips on my neck. I look down to see Scarlett looking up at me with concern in her eyes.

I give her a smile and she adjust slightly so she is leaning on her elbow, her hand tracing random shapes on my chest. "You ok?" She asked and I nodded but she frowned at me. "I was talking to you, but you weren't answering." She carried on and I shook my head. "I'm fine, I was just lost in thought." I explained and she sighed. "Talk to me Y/n. You weren't just lost in thought, you were thinking of something serious, I could tell by the way your brow furrowed." I looked at her in the eye and gave her a quick kiss before taking a deep breath.

"Do you see us going the distance?" I asked tentatively, unable to look her in the eye. I could see the shock on her face, but she quickly tried to hide it. She was silent for a while before she spoke up. My heart beating fast with every silent second that passed. "Of course, I do. I love you. In fact, I'm madly in love with you that I think I have a bit of an obsession." She laughed and I couldn't help but smile in return. "Whilst I've been away, all I could think was how much I missed you and Ava and that I wanted to be back in those two weeks where we were in our own little bubble. I see us sat when we're old and grey, reminiscing about the wonderful life that we had together." She carries on to share more seriously.

I hadn't notice that a tear had escaped when she lifted her hand and wiped it away with her thumb. "Do you see us like that?" She asked, a worried expression now appearing on her face. I placed my hand on her cheek and smiled. "I want nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with you. You're everything I could ever ask for and more." I shared easily but she could read me too well. "Something is worrying you. I can tell." She observers, leaning into my touch. I turned to lie on my back and let out a sigh.

"I'm scared." I said almost at a whisper. "Of what? You can tell me Y/n, no matter what it is. We should talk through these things together." Scarlett reassured me. "I guess I'm worried about my work and Ava." I started and she hummed in response, allowing me to carry on. "Within the next year, I'll likely have to go on another deployment. I considered leaving the military, but I'd have to move back to the UK, and I don't want to do that." I shared and I could see her eyes flicker with slight fear.

"Will our relationship cope with that? I'll be gone for six to eight months, and communications will be limited." I asked and her face contorted in thought. "I have no doubt we would be just fine. Yes, we're still early in this relationship, but we have built a strong foundation. Will it be easy? Fuck no. I'll be without you for months, worried about if you're safe or not. But it certainly won't change that I love you and still want to be with you." She explained and it instantly helped to calm me.