Bad Girl
Lunch break na nandito ako sa Garden sa labis na inis hindi ko pinansin si Luan.Hindi naman ako nahirapan dahil pilit syang hinahatak ni Ella na syang lalong ikina kulo ng dugo ko.
Masama ang tingin ko sa halaman para doon ibuntong ang galit ng may umupo sa gilid ko. Inirapan ko sya at hindi pinansin.
"I bought food" He said but I didn't say anything.
He stayed quiet after that kaya nag salita na ako.
"Tapos na kayo mag lunch ni Ella?" May halong pait kong tanong.
"We didn't lunch together"
Nawala ang kunot ng nuo ko dahil doon. Hindi na ako nag salita sumunod noon.
"Look I know na napipilitan ka lang sumama saakin dahil sa sinabi ko sayong pag babanta na kailanan mo kong maging girlfriend kundi ay ipapakulong kita. I was just joking okay kalimutan mo na yun"
Hindi ko pala kayang ipag siksikan ang sarili ko sa isang taong napipilitan lang na i keep ako. Sa lola ko nga hindi ko ipinilit ang sarili ko eh sa kanya pa kaya.
Gusto ko tuloy maiyak dahil sa nararamdaman ko. This is my first time feeling this way kaya hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Part of me want to keep him but I also want to be away from him. Ang gulo gulo!! Nakakainis
Tatayo na sana ako ng bigla nyang hawakan ang braso ko. Kunot nuo ko yang tiningnan. Nakayuko lang sya kaya hindi ko makita ang mukha nya.
"I- I'm not"
Hindi ako nag salita dahil gusto kong ipag patuloy ang sinasabi nya. Mga ilang minuto ay tsaka sya nag angat ng tingin. Mabigat ang pag hinga nya at medyo nanunubig ang mata nya.
"You are so bad Neyah.."
Nawala lahat ng emosyon sa mata ko dahil sa sinabi nyang iyun.
"So bad... For making me feel this way. You said earlier we're together and now your pushing me away" He composed himself.
"H-hindi ako napipilitan d-dahil gusto ko naman" pabulong nyang sinabi ang huli kaya hindi ko naintindihan
"Ano?"
"I really really like you and you said you also like me, so... please let's make this thing work."
"But I heard you. Yesterday you said to Ella that I was bad. What do you mean by that? "
"Y-You are because you are the only person capable of making me feel this way.... Yoyu keeping me and then your pushing me away to. You are so bad Neyah for making my heart bleed with your words "
He put my hand on his chest. I could feel his heartbeat the same as mine.
I didn't answer him. I thought I had a bad image of him since he said that, I thought he doesn't like my attitude, I thought he doesn't like a bad person like me, but I was wrong. I am trying to calm my heart that is having a celebration.
"You will never be able to let go of me if you enter this" I warn
You will never be able to escape me if you allow me to keep you. I'll keep you forever. Think twice Luan.
"Then Keep me... please"
Then it's official. Legally official
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Pagkauwi ng pagkauwi ko sa condo ay mabilis akong nag palit ng damit. Naging half day lang kami dahil sabi ng teacher namin. Hindi na ako masyadong nakinig sa kanila. Wala naman ako pake eh.
Matapos kong mag palit ay bumaba na ako at ginamit ang kotse ko papunta sa bahay nila Luan. Ang sabi nya ay sa kanto ako mag hintay kaya doon ako huminto. Ayaw daw muna nyang sabihin daw sa ate nya na kami na. Wala naman kaso saakin yun.
BINABASA MO ANG
She's Bad
Ficção Adolescente"So your willing to let go of the person you love Mr Sarmiento?" My teacher immediately ask before i could speak. "Yes po" "And why is that? Your just going to let her go without hearing any explanation? What if it was a misunderstanding?" I immedia...
