Allured {Book #1 Lilly & Justin Series} *Justin Bieber Fanfic*

Fall

Justin’s Point of View

“Yes.” Lily says, after a long moment a silence. She thrashed out her ring finger where Scooter happily slide on the diamond ring. After raising from his knee he pulled her out of the seat into a hug where they engulfed each in kisses.

Tearing my gaze away from the scene that was becoming way too much for me to handle. I suddenly felt small. Like everything around me was closing in. The awing and the flicks of cameras soon become replaced with the sound of my heart beating and breaths becoming uneven. 

I shut my eyes tight wanting nothing more than an escape from the suffocating feeling that was forming around my neck. I force myself to my feet in the same process of almost knocking over my chair. My knees began to wobble as my blurred vision could still make out the exit sign. Almost tripping over my own feet, while picking up the pace. Luckily no one noticed my clumsy act since they were to busy surrounding the happy couple.

Pushing the door open, I was immediately hit with the cool night air. Placing my back against the wall, I loosened up the tie and was granted with some relief. Although the sharp pain in my chest remained.

I placed a hand over my chest pressing down on it in hopes of soothing, but it felt as if I was knocked into a trance of where the scene of Lily saying should would happily marry Scooter was on repeat.

I’m currently waiting for this nightmare to end, but looks like it’s another slap in the face from reality. Lily choose Scooter over me. She never felt the same way I did. Everything we did was all fun and games. In her eyes I’m just a kid.

In a instant, I felt a flare of anger seep within my veins. I was betrayed. Every word she spoke, every promise made was an lie. I fell…I fell so hard and she wasn’t there to catch me, but of course I was always there to catch her. Tears began prickle at the back of my eyes, threatening to fall. I wiped the tears away quickly. I didn’t want to portray any emotion that signified I was weak. There was no need to show that I was less of a man by crying.

I sat down on the ground and brought my knees up to my chest. I wanted nothing more, but to disappear. In my mind I couldn’t stop thinking about how hurt I am, but it wasn’t only that I have to come in contact with Lily some how. How was I going to face her? What was I going to say? Congratulations I’m happy you’re getting married. I scoffed shaking my head in annoyance. That would be complete utter bullshit and the both of us would know it.

I suddenly felt another presence by my side, I silently hoped it wasn’t who I thought it was. I couldn’t deal with this right now and this definitely wasn’t the place to.

“Don’t worry it’s me.” The familiar voice of Ryan informed. I sighed in relief but continue to hold my gaze with the ground. I felt like a complete idiot for telling him about Lily in the first place. Now everything backfired, I assumed the next words coming from him would be an I told you so.

Ryan kneeled down beside me while placing a hand on my shoulder in comfort.

“I’m so sorry.” Ryan apologized breaking the focus I had ahead. “I knew the way you feel about her.” He gulped, choosing his words wisely.